My oldest daughter seems to have the worse luck of anybody I know at this point in life. No sooner does she get the all clear from the doctor and urologist than she has a painful bug bite on her left leg. It must have happened last Sunday sometime and just got progressively worse over the last two days. I finally ended up taking her to the doctor because everything I was doing was not helping. So now she is at her Dad’s house and they are treating it with antibiotics and topical prescription cream. I talked to her Dad today and he said that it looks like two fangs have punctured her skin. So now we are thinking it may have been a spider bite of some kind. She has to go back for a follow-up appointment on Wednesday to ensure the infection and swelling is improving.
In addition, I got my court date set for mediation with my ex. He also got the paperwork and was very upset. However, he has been VERY NICE the last couple of times we have had to talk on the phone because I think he knows that he could be in trouble. I don’t know for sure, but I ask for prayers as we are going through this process that we can both be respectful of each other’s opinions and feelings. I also ask for prayers for the best outcome for children. God does answer prayers and I believe that He will see me through this also.
As a bonus, I am including a picture I took this morning of our new kitty. What a sweetie he is. Now if we could just get everyone in a picture at once.
I have decided to run a 10K in November around Thanksgiving. I am really excited, but can’t seem to break a 13 minute mile, which is just barely a jog and only gets me to a 6.25 mile run of 78 minutes. I need to shave about 15 minutes off that time in about 7 weeks to keep up with my husband.
We went to a comedy show last night at the Improv. It featured one of my favorite comedians, Jeff Dunham. He is the ventriloquist that does Jose Jalapeño, Walter and Peanut. He is such a great comedian and after the week/month/year I have had it was nice to laugh and just feel good.
Lastly, my night ended in my DH and I having a great session of “togetherness” in a place that we probably should not have done that at. However, it was exciting and I am not sure how to handle it because there will be several days that I will be in this place. It was a nice way to spice things up.
Well, that is about all I know. Keep up the good blogging! I am enjoying all the reading.
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
When the fur flies
This last weekend my family and I adopted our third animal. This is the second additional to our animal family in less than a month. About three weeks ago we "adopted" a dog from a friend because she was having issues with the other dogs in the house. She needed to be in a one dog household…so we got her. She is great and is such a love, but her and our first cat (Diva) just had a hard time getting along.
About two weeks ago my DH and I went to a local pet supply store to get rawhide chews, some doggie treats and a few other items for our new pooch. While we were there we saw that they had puppy and kitten adoption clinics. All the animals were so cute and we initially just looked with no intention of getting another living thing into our home. While we were there we saw an older female cat that had been fixed and declawed and thought she might fit in well.
We went back this last weekend and saw her there again. In the process of taking her out of her cage and trying to see if she would be good fit she hissed and spit on me and both my girls. Immediately, I was like NO this is not going to work. So we looked at a few more cages. I told my DH do not get attached to any of these other animals (he had been eyeing two little male kittens about 8 weeks old). I left him and my girls in the area of the kitten clinic and went to get some dog food. When I came back to get him and the kids to go I am told “Honey, don’t get mad, but I need a check for $90.” What? What did you do? I adopted this cute little guy here…he turns around and I see this tiny ball of fur sitting on his shoulders, so small that you can’t see him if you are looking at hubby from the front. All black with little wisps of white fuzzy hairs coming out on his sides and back. My heart melts and while I am angry that I wasn’t consulted, I saw the way the girls and my hubby looked at him and said “OK”
So now we have three animals. All of which are dear to my heart. While hubby doesn’t really like the dog and while the girls are starting to wear the new off of the kitten I feel complete. I think the new kitten has been great for both of the other animals. He has kind of been the bridge that has filled the gap between the hissing and spitting that our other cat has been doing to the dog and he has also become the object of affection of the dog. She is such a Mama dog and has had a litter of pups, but she still checks and rechecks everyone at night to ensure they are where they are supposed to be. If an animal could have OCD she has it.
Anyway, I am trying to get a picture of all there fur balls to post here…but getting an angry cat (she isn’t really angry, but plays at it well), a full size lab and an 8 week old kitten to all sit still in the same place at the same time….well it can be a challenge. Once I get it I’ll introduce you to our new additions.
About two weeks ago my DH and I went to a local pet supply store to get rawhide chews, some doggie treats and a few other items for our new pooch. While we were there we saw that they had puppy and kitten adoption clinics. All the animals were so cute and we initially just looked with no intention of getting another living thing into our home. While we were there we saw an older female cat that had been fixed and declawed and thought she might fit in well.
We went back this last weekend and saw her there again. In the process of taking her out of her cage and trying to see if she would be good fit she hissed and spit on me and both my girls. Immediately, I was like NO this is not going to work. So we looked at a few more cages. I told my DH do not get attached to any of these other animals (he had been eyeing two little male kittens about 8 weeks old). I left him and my girls in the area of the kitten clinic and went to get some dog food. When I came back to get him and the kids to go I am told “Honey, don’t get mad, but I need a check for $90.” What? What did you do? I adopted this cute little guy here…he turns around and I see this tiny ball of fur sitting on his shoulders, so small that you can’t see him if you are looking at hubby from the front. All black with little wisps of white fuzzy hairs coming out on his sides and back. My heart melts and while I am angry that I wasn’t consulted, I saw the way the girls and my hubby looked at him and said “OK”
So now we have three animals. All of which are dear to my heart. While hubby doesn’t really like the dog and while the girls are starting to wear the new off of the kitten I feel complete. I think the new kitten has been great for both of the other animals. He has kind of been the bridge that has filled the gap between the hissing and spitting that our other cat has been doing to the dog and he has also become the object of affection of the dog. She is such a Mama dog and has had a litter of pups, but she still checks and rechecks everyone at night to ensure they are where they are supposed to be. If an animal could have OCD she has it.
Anyway, I am trying to get a picture of all there fur balls to post here…but getting an angry cat (she isn’t really angry, but plays at it well), a full size lab and an 8 week old kitten to all sit still in the same place at the same time….well it can be a challenge. Once I get it I’ll introduce you to our new additions.
Monday, September 18, 2006
Update – I guess you all deserve it
I have not done an update in a while because I just have not taken the time to sit down and write about what is going on in my life. There have been a couple of major incidents, but nothing so alarming as to warrant a blog update. I go to blogs everyday and see that many of you update daily...blessings to you who are dedicated.....you have much more strength than I do.
Anyway, the first major thing is that my oldest daughter has pretty much gotten the all clear from her urologist that she is pretty healthy. He wants to do another ultrasound in six months, but for the most part she is off the hook. I am so happy about this and have been praising God for days now because I know it was him that made things better for her.
Secondly, I have gotten into a tiff with my ex. You see we have a 10 year old daughter (mentioned above) who is extremely mature for her age. She will be 11 in a few weeks and is little Ms. Independent. She loves to be able to do things on her own and really believes she is about 16…LOL. Anyway, I have been letting her leave for school and come home on the bus by herself for about 3 weeks now since school has started on the days that she is with me. She is with her Dad a couple of days a week and on those days I make sure she is at daycare with her sister for him to pick up/drop off. Anyway, she told him that she was being left alone for up to 30-45 minutes at a time in the morning and about the same in the afternoon. I figure she is mature enough and needs the chance to prove her independence. So, I have left her do this to see how things go. Well, he does not agree with her being able to leave and come home on her own. He thinks she is too young and that someone could easily snatch her up and take her away.
While I agree with that, I also know that she is smart and knows the routine at our house. She comes home, locks all the doors, calls me to let me know she is there, gets a snack, starts/finishes her homework and does not answer the door/phone until we are home. I call at least two times to check on her before I know someone (i.e. my husband) has made it home to be with her. In the morning, I leave her at home and call her at least twice, sometimes more to ensure she is OK and that she is doing something constructive like reading or craft (drawing). No TV, No Computer No contact with outside world until we are home.
I guess this is just going to have to be a point that we agree to DISAGREE on because I don’t think it should change. She hates going to daycare. She is the oldest one there, all her friends make fun of her when she goes and call her “baby” etc. I just think she needs some independence and the ability to build some trust.
In addition, my ex and I had it out about a backpack of all things. When school started I bought both of the girls a backpack of their choice. My oldest daughter chose an over the shoulder bag, that I knew she would end up hating and tried to talk her out of, but she insisted on getting it. Well, now 4 weeks later, school is well under way and she hates the bag she chose. So, she asked if we could go to a local department store because they had Jan sport backpacks on sale and wanted one. I told her that she could get one, but she had to buy it. She had a perfectly good bag to use and if she wanted something new she needed to use her own money.
She was a bit upset at first because she has been saving to buy and Ipod and this would take about $25 from her Ipod money. Well, she really wanted the backpack and took her money and bought it. She told her Dad about it and he flipped out. How dare I make her use HER money to buy a SCHOOL supply? He didn’t even let me explain the situation, just jumped all over me. Well, he eventually got the whole story and somewhat apologized, but not really.
Now, I am waiting. Waiting for the next shoe to drop. About three months ago I asked for court ordered mediation. I asked for the courts to require him to go to mediation so that we could talk about some issues that have been on my mind for a while. I don’t trust he and I getting together on our own for several reasons, one I don’t like to be ALONE with him. I am not scared that he will physically hurt me, but I want a third party there (impartial, not his wife or my husband) there to hear what is said. Another reason is that I know his wife would never allow him and me to be alone together. The two of them got together by cheating while we were married and I know she doesn’t trust him further than she can throw him. I am fine with not being alone with him…see reason one.
Anyway, I am waiting because I know once he gets the subpoena to appear in mediation he is going to turn into a real asshole. Even bigger than he is now. I am sure he is going to think this is his chance to get all the bad parenting things I have done with the girls out on the table. To be honest, I don’t really know what I expect from this mediation other than I want him to stop trying to control what happens in my house. I don’t tell him how to run his house, but he sure does not have a problem telling me how to run mine.
I ask for prayers during this time. I know that I will sure need them and the support of being able to come here and vent will be good also.
So there is my update…hope all of you are having a better life than I am right now.
On an up note, we got another pet ….Zack…a 4-6 week old abandoned kitty. Needless to say we are making adjustments…LOL.
Blessings!
Anyway, the first major thing is that my oldest daughter has pretty much gotten the all clear from her urologist that she is pretty healthy. He wants to do another ultrasound in six months, but for the most part she is off the hook. I am so happy about this and have been praising God for days now because I know it was him that made things better for her.
Secondly, I have gotten into a tiff with my ex. You see we have a 10 year old daughter (mentioned above) who is extremely mature for her age. She will be 11 in a few weeks and is little Ms. Independent. She loves to be able to do things on her own and really believes she is about 16…LOL. Anyway, I have been letting her leave for school and come home on the bus by herself for about 3 weeks now since school has started on the days that she is with me. She is with her Dad a couple of days a week and on those days I make sure she is at daycare with her sister for him to pick up/drop off. Anyway, she told him that she was being left alone for up to 30-45 minutes at a time in the morning and about the same in the afternoon. I figure she is mature enough and needs the chance to prove her independence. So, I have left her do this to see how things go. Well, he does not agree with her being able to leave and come home on her own. He thinks she is too young and that someone could easily snatch her up and take her away.
While I agree with that, I also know that she is smart and knows the routine at our house. She comes home, locks all the doors, calls me to let me know she is there, gets a snack, starts/finishes her homework and does not answer the door/phone until we are home. I call at least two times to check on her before I know someone (i.e. my husband) has made it home to be with her. In the morning, I leave her at home and call her at least twice, sometimes more to ensure she is OK and that she is doing something constructive like reading or craft (drawing). No TV, No Computer No contact with outside world until we are home.
I guess this is just going to have to be a point that we agree to DISAGREE on because I don’t think it should change. She hates going to daycare. She is the oldest one there, all her friends make fun of her when she goes and call her “baby” etc. I just think she needs some independence and the ability to build some trust.
In addition, my ex and I had it out about a backpack of all things. When school started I bought both of the girls a backpack of their choice. My oldest daughter chose an over the shoulder bag, that I knew she would end up hating and tried to talk her out of, but she insisted on getting it. Well, now 4 weeks later, school is well under way and she hates the bag she chose. So, she asked if we could go to a local department store because they had Jan sport backpacks on sale and wanted one. I told her that she could get one, but she had to buy it. She had a perfectly good bag to use and if she wanted something new she needed to use her own money.
She was a bit upset at first because she has been saving to buy and Ipod and this would take about $25 from her Ipod money. Well, she really wanted the backpack and took her money and bought it. She told her Dad about it and he flipped out. How dare I make her use HER money to buy a SCHOOL supply? He didn’t even let me explain the situation, just jumped all over me. Well, he eventually got the whole story and somewhat apologized, but not really.
Now, I am waiting. Waiting for the next shoe to drop. About three months ago I asked for court ordered mediation. I asked for the courts to require him to go to mediation so that we could talk about some issues that have been on my mind for a while. I don’t trust he and I getting together on our own for several reasons, one I don’t like to be ALONE with him. I am not scared that he will physically hurt me, but I want a third party there (impartial, not his wife or my husband) there to hear what is said. Another reason is that I know his wife would never allow him and me to be alone together. The two of them got together by cheating while we were married and I know she doesn’t trust him further than she can throw him. I am fine with not being alone with him…see reason one.
Anyway, I am waiting because I know once he gets the subpoena to appear in mediation he is going to turn into a real asshole. Even bigger than he is now. I am sure he is going to think this is his chance to get all the bad parenting things I have done with the girls out on the table. To be honest, I don’t really know what I expect from this mediation other than I want him to stop trying to control what happens in my house. I don’t tell him how to run his house, but he sure does not have a problem telling me how to run mine.
I ask for prayers during this time. I know that I will sure need them and the support of being able to come here and vent will be good also.
So there is my update…hope all of you are having a better life than I am right now.
On an up note, we got another pet ….Zack…a 4-6 week old abandoned kitty. Needless to say we are making adjustments…LOL.
Blessings!
Friday, September 08, 2006
New Camera
Well, I got a new camera. I got a Nikon Cool Pix L2 or L3. I'm not sure which. Let's just say that it is a great camera. It kind of makes me glad (opps) that my other one is lost. I would never have bought it without having a need for it.
I wish that this week was already over. I'm ready for a good rest.
Hope you are all doing well.
Lisa
I wish that this week was already over. I'm ready for a good rest.
Hope you are all doing well.
Lisa
Thursday, September 07, 2006
It is officially gone...
After a through search of the house and the park and every where else we can think of, the camera is gone....boo hoo.
Also, our new dog is not working out.
My daughter had an MRI today for her continuing bladder issues.
My work is stressing me out.
My face is breaking out like a teenager.
I hate life right now.
Seems about the time I get a few bucks saved and few more leave the door.
When does it end?
Also, our new dog is not working out.
My daughter had an MRI today for her continuing bladder issues.
My work is stressing me out.
My face is breaking out like a teenager.
I hate life right now.
Seems about the time I get a few bucks saved and few more leave the door.
When does it end?
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
My camera is lost
I think my oldest daughter did something with it and she can't remember where she put it, but it is gone for now.
Please pray for her....because if she doesn't find it....there will be HE**!
Please pray for her....because if she doesn't find it....there will be HE**!
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
It’s a mass….but 99% not cancer
So we went to my daughter’s appointment today with the urologist. The doctor was very vague. We don’t know what it is…but 99% sure it is not cancer. So where do we go from here…..MRI…yep…my 10 year old will have an MRI in the next 7-10 days. I hate this…I talked to God and want off the ride…but no…not yet…my ticket still has a few more spins.
Other than that…life here is pretty slow. I have been very tired the last few days. I am not sleeping well. I think part of it is from worry, part of it is from fatigue from worry and the other part is just bad sleeping habits.
We are going to try to get out of town this weekend. We are thinking about possibly going to see my folks and just spend some time with them. The girls will be with their Dad all weekend…so it will be good to get away.
I am worried about another fellow blogger….Iris. She has not updated her site in almost two weeks. I am praying things are OK with her.
I am also concerned for a blogger that I have really come to enjoy his posts. Pipe – here’s praying that things went well today.
Hope everyone else is OK.
Blessings,
Lisa
Other than that…life here is pretty slow. I have been very tired the last few days. I am not sleeping well. I think part of it is from worry, part of it is from fatigue from worry and the other part is just bad sleeping habits.
We are going to try to get out of town this weekend. We are thinking about possibly going to see my folks and just spend some time with them. The girls will be with their Dad all weekend…so it will be good to get away.
I am worried about another fellow blogger….Iris. She has not updated her site in almost two weeks. I am praying things are OK with her.
I am also concerned for a blogger that I have really come to enjoy his posts. Pipe – here’s praying that things went well today.
Hope everyone else is OK.
Blessings,
Lisa
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Newest Member of the Family
I thought I would post a picture of the new pooch we acquired yesterday. She is such a love and I think she is going to work out fine.
Enjoy.
Lisa
Saturday, August 26, 2006
Any advice?
I want to back up all of my posting over the last several month. A couple of people I have read on their blogs have done this. Anyone have any advice on how to accomplish this?
Thanks,
Lisa
Thanks,
Lisa
It’s not good, but it could be worse
Got some phone calls from my daughter’s doctor on Friday. We have an appointment with a bladder/kidney specialist on Tuesday. He is a urologist and I trust my daughters doctor completely in that she would only send us to someone she would take her own children too.
Anyway, we are awaiting the new appointment because a lesion/ulcer/growth has been found in my daughter’s bladder wall. Of course, being the type A person I am I have Googled every word that the doctor gave to me over the phone this last week. You know us women, we worry a problem in to oblivion and when it comes back somewhere between nothing and deathbed we are OK with things. I have worried about everything from a non-invasive growth to bladder cancer in the span of three days. Talk about being worn out.
Again I am asking for prayers for my family and especially my daughter. I know that the doctors that we are going to are super skilled and talented. I know that God has a reason for this test and I am sure before it is over I am going to wonder why it has been placed here at all. I pray that I can find peace because right now, between the worry of having to tell my daughter and the worry of what may/may not happen has gotten me to the point of not sleeping.
On a lighter note, we have a new member of the family. A good friend of mine has allowed us to rescue her AKC registered chocolate lab. They were going to have to get rid of her and I couldn’t see that happening in a good way. Therefore, we got her and she is so sweet. Our cat doesn’t love her yet and she has been here less than a day, but over all things seem to be going well. Pray that they will continue to go well and that we can keep her with us.
Well, I am going to sign off now. I have a few things to do before the girls get home from their father’s house. Plus I got this really cool Disney Photomosaic puzzle that I want to get started on. I love mosaic pictures and to have a puzzle that is supposed to eventually look like Mickey Mouse, but be out of a whole bunch of other pics is really fascinating to me.
Hope you all have a blessed weekend.
Lisa
Anyway, we are awaiting the new appointment because a lesion/ulcer/growth has been found in my daughter’s bladder wall. Of course, being the type A person I am I have Googled every word that the doctor gave to me over the phone this last week. You know us women, we worry a problem in to oblivion and when it comes back somewhere between nothing and deathbed we are OK with things. I have worried about everything from a non-invasive growth to bladder cancer in the span of three days. Talk about being worn out.
Again I am asking for prayers for my family and especially my daughter. I know that the doctors that we are going to are super skilled and talented. I know that God has a reason for this test and I am sure before it is over I am going to wonder why it has been placed here at all. I pray that I can find peace because right now, between the worry of having to tell my daughter and the worry of what may/may not happen has gotten me to the point of not sleeping.
On a lighter note, we have a new member of the family. A good friend of mine has allowed us to rescue her AKC registered chocolate lab. They were going to have to get rid of her and I couldn’t see that happening in a good way. Therefore, we got her and she is so sweet. Our cat doesn’t love her yet and she has been here less than a day, but over all things seem to be going well. Pray that they will continue to go well and that we can keep her with us.
Well, I am going to sign off now. I have a few things to do before the girls get home from their father’s house. Plus I got this really cool Disney Photomosaic puzzle that I want to get started on. I love mosaic pictures and to have a puzzle that is supposed to eventually look like Mickey Mouse, but be out of a whole bunch of other pics is really fascinating to me.
Hope you all have a blessed weekend.
Lisa
Friday, August 25, 2006
Soothing my Soul.....
This is my new favorite Christian Alternative Song. I tried to find a link for the song, but can’t seem to figure out where or if it is available yet. I know that many who read my blog do not pray, but I really liked the words of this song. Especially with what is going on with my daughter right now I am amazed how much music can speak to your soul.
Blessings,
Lisa
Matt Redman -You Never Let Go
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I’m caught in the middle of the storms of this lifeI won’t turn backI know
You are near
And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?Whom then shall I fear?
Chorus:Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me
And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We’ll live to know
You here on the earth
Chorus:
Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You
Blessings,
Lisa
Matt Redman -You Never Let Go
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I’m caught in the middle of the storms of this lifeI won’t turn backI know
You are near
And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?Whom then shall I fear?
Chorus:Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me
And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We’ll live to know
You here on the earth
Chorus:
Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Poor Pluto
I can’t believe that Pluto is no longer a planet….not that I am a big astrologer, but I liked having the nine planets. I even made a model of the solar system in 5th grad for the science fair. Complete with light bulb sun that moved the planets because of the heat….really cool…my dad did a great job…LOL.
So imagine how I felt this morning when I went on MSNBC and found out that a bunch of people across the globe from where I am decided that Pluto is no longer a planet. What gives them the right to decide it is no longer a planet. I guess I’ll just have to get over it.
I got a call from the doctor today. My daughter is being referred to another doctor and hopefully we will get some straight answers. Continued prayers are greatly appreciated. Hopefully sometime this next week or so we will have some sort of answers.
Right now, the kids are with their dad and I’m enjoying a quiet night at home with my hubby. I took a long bubble bath, read more of my trashy novel, and had some oatmeal for dinner and am ½ watching this special on MSNBC about Scott and Lacy Peterson. I think I will probably be asleep soon.
Hope all is well in blogger land. BTW, my dear husband is going to be setting up his own blog to display his sketches/artwork. When he gets it up and running I’ll post a link.
Blessings,
Lisa
So imagine how I felt this morning when I went on MSNBC and found out that a bunch of people across the globe from where I am decided that Pluto is no longer a planet. What gives them the right to decide it is no longer a planet. I guess I’ll just have to get over it.
I got a call from the doctor today. My daughter is being referred to another doctor and hopefully we will get some straight answers. Continued prayers are greatly appreciated. Hopefully sometime this next week or so we will have some sort of answers.
Right now, the kids are with their dad and I’m enjoying a quiet night at home with my hubby. I took a long bubble bath, read more of my trashy novel, and had some oatmeal for dinner and am ½ watching this special on MSNBC about Scott and Lacy Peterson. I think I will probably be asleep soon.
Hope all is well in blogger land. BTW, my dear husband is going to be setting up his own blog to display his sketches/artwork. When he gets it up and running I’ll post a link.
Blessings,
Lisa
Monday, August 21, 2006
Survived…now we wait…
Well, I survived my daughter’s tests….does that make sense. She was not scared or horrified, but I was scared and nervous enough for both of us.
She did really well. They took some blood, did an ultrasound and ran a few other tests. All told we were in and out in a matter of a few hours, but after it was over I was so tired. I think that I was just emotionally drained. In addition, coming off my anxiety meds in the middle of a situation like this was probably not the best thing. However, I think for the most part I did pretty well.
So now we wait. We wait for the blood tests, we wait for the ultrasound to be read by the radiologist, we wait for the other tests to confirm or deny the existence of a problem…then we wait for a solution.
I am not a patient person. Ask my husband; ask my ex…ask my mother. I don’t do well with having to wait. With my first child, I found out as soon as I could what I was having. I started to buy things based on a 65% chance that the doctor had told me I was having a girl. Granted there was at 35% chance that I could have had a boy, but in my mind 65% was a D average and I was going with it. With my second child, I didn’t find out because my husband at the time wanted a surprise and we were so sure we were having a boy. I bought things in greens and yellows just to be safe, but I knew I was having a boy. 4 months after the ultrasound my second girl arrived.
Christmas, birthdays, anniversary and other special occasions can be ruined for others by me not wanting to wait to give the gift I have given or by incessantly questioning what I have been given. To the point that my husband will not put my presents under the tree until I am well asleep in Christmas Eve.
However, the longest and hardest waits for me are in regards to health related questions. What is wrong with me or my family? Why has nobody called back? I know that it has only bee 45 minutes since you drew blood, but I want to know now what is going on. Needless to say that 24 hours after the tests were done the anxiety has once again been building and I am not doing well with waiting. I’m sure that everything is OK and it is all going to turn out alright, but waiting kills me.
I know that it is all in God’s hands and I know that He has a special plan for my daughter, I just wish he would let me in on it from time to time…LOL.
I want to thank each and every one of you that emailed me with words of encouragement, prayers and special thoughts. It has meant a great deal to know that people are out there will positive thoughts and prayers coming our way. I know that even if this is a horrible thing we end up having to deal with I will be a stronger mother and person because I faced it. However, I know that without prayers and thoughts from others I would not have been able to make it though this last week.
Thanks again so much.
Blessings,
Lisa
She did really well. They took some blood, did an ultrasound and ran a few other tests. All told we were in and out in a matter of a few hours, but after it was over I was so tired. I think that I was just emotionally drained. In addition, coming off my anxiety meds in the middle of a situation like this was probably not the best thing. However, I think for the most part I did pretty well.
So now we wait. We wait for the blood tests, we wait for the ultrasound to be read by the radiologist, we wait for the other tests to confirm or deny the existence of a problem…then we wait for a solution.
I am not a patient person. Ask my husband; ask my ex…ask my mother. I don’t do well with having to wait. With my first child, I found out as soon as I could what I was having. I started to buy things based on a 65% chance that the doctor had told me I was having a girl. Granted there was at 35% chance that I could have had a boy, but in my mind 65% was a D average and I was going with it. With my second child, I didn’t find out because my husband at the time wanted a surprise and we were so sure we were having a boy. I bought things in greens and yellows just to be safe, but I knew I was having a boy. 4 months after the ultrasound my second girl arrived.
Christmas, birthdays, anniversary and other special occasions can be ruined for others by me not wanting to wait to give the gift I have given or by incessantly questioning what I have been given. To the point that my husband will not put my presents under the tree until I am well asleep in Christmas Eve.
However, the longest and hardest waits for me are in regards to health related questions. What is wrong with me or my family? Why has nobody called back? I know that it has only bee 45 minutes since you drew blood, but I want to know now what is going on. Needless to say that 24 hours after the tests were done the anxiety has once again been building and I am not doing well with waiting. I’m sure that everything is OK and it is all going to turn out alright, but waiting kills me.
I know that it is all in God’s hands and I know that He has a special plan for my daughter, I just wish he would let me in on it from time to time…LOL.
I want to thank each and every one of you that emailed me with words of encouragement, prayers and special thoughts. It has meant a great deal to know that people are out there will positive thoughts and prayers coming our way. I know that even if this is a horrible thing we end up having to deal with I will be a stronger mother and person because I faced it. However, I know that without prayers and thoughts from others I would not have been able to make it though this last week.
Thanks again so much.
Blessings,
Lisa
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Prayers Requested
I have been out of it the last few days. I found out earlier this week that my oldest daughter is facing some pretty serious health conditions that could change the way she lives her life. We are currently in the process of going through a whole bunch of tests to see what exactly is wrong (if anything, for sure) and are praying that all comes back OK.
I don't really want to get into details, but I just ask that if you are the type to pray please keep our family in your prayers. If not, then please don't down play what I believe to be a very real way to help deal with lives issues.
Blessings,
Lisa
I don't really want to get into details, but I just ask that if you are the type to pray please keep our family in your prayers. If not, then please don't down play what I believe to be a very real way to help deal with lives issues.
Blessings,
Lisa
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Big Thank You...to Shiong....
She sent me the neatest things from Singapore...and also sent my girls these cute hair sticks. See pic below....
I love the ladybug change purse....it is great.
Thanks so much!!!!!!
I love the ladybug change purse....it is great.
Thanks so much!!!!!!
Thursday, August 10, 2006
School has started again & I’m sad
Well, school has started here once again. I’m not sad that school has started because that means more of a routine, fun trips, learning new things and tired kids. I think I am sad for other reasons. I think I am going through a bit of a depression here.
A little background – I went on anxiety meds about a year and a half ago. My last job was just a horror to be at, add to that the stress my ex was putting on me and the over all stress of being a wife/mother and my brain couldn’t handle it. I decided to see someone about it and was diagnosed with acute anxiety disorder. OK, so now what. I was told to go see my primary care doctor and he prescribed an anxiety med for me.
I went off of them about 6-8 months ago because the stress in my life was starting to diminish and I was learning new skills to cope with it better. I quit cold turkey and within about 3 weeks I was so depressed. I went to my doctor and told him what I had done. After being read the riot act I was told that I needed to balance my chemicals and we went on a slow withdrawal method. Well, this last week was my last week on meds. I think coming down off those meds, plus my oldest daughter will be in junior high next year and my husband has been driving me mad lately has contributed to my depression.
In addition, I have been working with a trainer for about 6 months now with very little results. Well, today I finally broke down and told him about being on anxiety meds and how I had come off and now I was feel a little down. He said “I knew something wasn’t right because most people lose weight and gain muscle so quickly with me and I have been beating the hell outta you and not getting results.” He has been as frustrated as I have been. So, I guess part of the reason that I have been having slow results is due to the meds I was on. I am hoping that by this next week we will really start to see some changes. He believes so and I am praying for it.
I did some research the last few days and have learned that the particular med I was on does tend to have an affect on weight. Mostly people gain weight, which I didn’t, but it also said it can be hard to lose weight. So now I know. I think this depression will pass and as long as I can get through the next few weeks without any kind of stress that is too overwhelming I should be good…however, I do have an ex to deal with, plus Ms. PMS is making a show today…LOL.
I have to say that this last week I have been watching only a couple of reality TV programs. I watched Workout on Tuesday and felt horrible for Jackie when she came home to a destroyed house. How disrespectful of her employees to do that to her home. I honestly think that she and her girlfriend need to break-up. Who honestly BITES their significant other when they are angry? I mean I yell, scream and throw a fit, but I don’t bite my DH.
I fell asleep watching Project Runway last night. I got about as far as the models trying to kill each other to choose a fashion icon. I didn’t see who got kicked off last night, but immediately went online this morning to read Tim’s blog. I hate to see that Bradley was eliminated. He was one of my favorites, but I felt like he was kind of on the edge after the last challenge. What is up with Laura…..man she just seems like the type of person who is going to pick a fight. Angela is surprising me….but I think she needs to go….those grandma circles are killing me…LOL.
My last thing for today is about work. I have been at my job for about a year now. I was due for a review the middle of July, but still have not gotten it. I keep waiting and waiting and still nothing. Who knows what is going on, but I am frustrated and a little upset that I have not gotten any feedback. I know that I am doing a good job, but having someone actually tell you that is what you really need to hear sometimes.
I hope all is well with those out there in blogger land. I have been reading the blogs to the right everyday. I am so glad my friend Andrew got back from his trip. He didn’t tell us he was going and had a few of us worried….Don’t do that again…LOL.
Blessings,
Lisa
A little background – I went on anxiety meds about a year and a half ago. My last job was just a horror to be at, add to that the stress my ex was putting on me and the over all stress of being a wife/mother and my brain couldn’t handle it. I decided to see someone about it and was diagnosed with acute anxiety disorder. OK, so now what. I was told to go see my primary care doctor and he prescribed an anxiety med for me.
I went off of them about 6-8 months ago because the stress in my life was starting to diminish and I was learning new skills to cope with it better. I quit cold turkey and within about 3 weeks I was so depressed. I went to my doctor and told him what I had done. After being read the riot act I was told that I needed to balance my chemicals and we went on a slow withdrawal method. Well, this last week was my last week on meds. I think coming down off those meds, plus my oldest daughter will be in junior high next year and my husband has been driving me mad lately has contributed to my depression.
In addition, I have been working with a trainer for about 6 months now with very little results. Well, today I finally broke down and told him about being on anxiety meds and how I had come off and now I was feel a little down. He said “I knew something wasn’t right because most people lose weight and gain muscle so quickly with me and I have been beating the hell outta you and not getting results.” He has been as frustrated as I have been. So, I guess part of the reason that I have been having slow results is due to the meds I was on. I am hoping that by this next week we will really start to see some changes. He believes so and I am praying for it.
I did some research the last few days and have learned that the particular med I was on does tend to have an affect on weight. Mostly people gain weight, which I didn’t, but it also said it can be hard to lose weight. So now I know. I think this depression will pass and as long as I can get through the next few weeks without any kind of stress that is too overwhelming I should be good…however, I do have an ex to deal with, plus Ms. PMS is making a show today…LOL.
I have to say that this last week I have been watching only a couple of reality TV programs. I watched Workout on Tuesday and felt horrible for Jackie when she came home to a destroyed house. How disrespectful of her employees to do that to her home. I honestly think that she and her girlfriend need to break-up. Who honestly BITES their significant other when they are angry? I mean I yell, scream and throw a fit, but I don’t bite my DH.
I fell asleep watching Project Runway last night. I got about as far as the models trying to kill each other to choose a fashion icon. I didn’t see who got kicked off last night, but immediately went online this morning to read Tim’s blog. I hate to see that Bradley was eliminated. He was one of my favorites, but I felt like he was kind of on the edge after the last challenge. What is up with Laura…..man she just seems like the type of person who is going to pick a fight. Angela is surprising me….but I think she needs to go….those grandma circles are killing me…LOL.
My last thing for today is about work. I have been at my job for about a year now. I was due for a review the middle of July, but still have not gotten it. I keep waiting and waiting and still nothing. Who knows what is going on, but I am frustrated and a little upset that I have not gotten any feedback. I know that I am doing a good job, but having someone actually tell you that is what you really need to hear sometimes.
I hope all is well with those out there in blogger land. I have been reading the blogs to the right everyday. I am so glad my friend Andrew got back from his trip. He didn’t tell us he was going and had a few of us worried….Don’t do that again…LOL.
Blessings,
Lisa
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Many things today….
Today is my many things post. There are many things that I would like to talk about.
First of all I would like to say that my teeth are very sore. I had an appointment with the orthodontist today and got an adjustment on my lower teeth only. The sad part is that in order to complete this treatment he had to polish and shape a couple of my lower teeth. It didn’t hurt at the time, but now my teeth are screaming. Also, I have these newly created “gaps” in between my teeth so that they can move into place. When a orthodontist or dentist decides they need to use a “polisher” on your teeth you usually think something that will make them shiny and clean looking. However, the sound that comes with using a polisher and the smell of burning teeth is not a fun thing to deal with at 7:30 in the morning.
My second thing to talk about today is the look of my blog. I have decided to change it up and bit and get rid of the ladybug theme for a little while. I want to thank Beth again for the link she gave me for the ladybug template I had before. I still love it, but just was ready for a change. I’m actually getting more and more comfortable with the whole html language that you find in templates. I am also learning that if you do something and you don’t like it you can always fix it. Spacing, headers, graphics, or anything else can be placed and removed with a little patience and time. Let me know what you think of the new layout.
Third topic today is government workers. This is going to be short and sweet. I know that there are probably many out there that are good and competent and do their job well. However, over the last couple of days I have talked to four that are being so difficult that I have literally had to hang up the phone before my head exploded. What is it about government workers (not all…just the ones I have been dealing with) that make it seem like they don’t care about whether or not you get the services you have PAID for?
Fourth, PROJECT RUNWAY is on tonight. I am like a little kid before Christmas. I am anxiously waiting what happens. Someone gets kicked off and I wonder how that will affect the rest of the season….drama, drama, drama. I am so bad about waiting for surprises and I am guilty of searching the internet super highway to see if there are any spoilers out there. Right now it is all guess work, but the guesses are pretty good. I know that there are those out there that do not feel this season is inspired or as good as previous, but I love it….maybe I just love the drama..LOL. I have added a new blog to the right here for those who are interested. It is called Blogging Project Runway (BPR). I love to go here and read what is happening…gives me my fix each week in between shows.
One of my comments asked if I have watched Work Out on Bravo. I have and I have to say that it took seeing the episodes a couple of times before I could safely say that I would be watching the entire season. I have to say that last night watching Jackie interacting with her Mom and her girlfriend was very interesting. When the whole topic of gay marriage came up you could tell that Jackie was torn about what to say to not make the situation worse. I really like Jackie and I think she can do so much better than the lady she is with right now, but it does make for good drama. In addition, who honestly MOONS their boss while their spouse/significant other is around and then wonders why there is a problem. I think that I would fire someone for that behavior…LOL.
I have to say that I am also waiting for an update on my friend’s blog. He is facing a difficult time right now and is being pressured to do something in his life that he does not feel is needed. When I read his words I feel the pain and suffocation that he has in his life. If you have not read his blog you really should check it out. He has an amazing way of writing and it just sucks you into the story.
Well, this is a long enough post for now and I need to get back to work.
Tomorrow I’ll post my thoughts on PR after watching tonight and also give an update on how my workout regimen is going…LOL.
Also, I wanted to let everyone know that two of my other blogs….Bookworms and Connections…will be ending. I just don’t have the time that I really want to be able to put into making them something special. Maybe in the fall once the kids are back into the swing of school.
I will still be writing at Ex-Rays, but have not had any good ex stories as of late.
Until then….Blessings,
Lisa
First of all I would like to say that my teeth are very sore. I had an appointment with the orthodontist today and got an adjustment on my lower teeth only. The sad part is that in order to complete this treatment he had to polish and shape a couple of my lower teeth. It didn’t hurt at the time, but now my teeth are screaming. Also, I have these newly created “gaps” in between my teeth so that they can move into place. When a orthodontist or dentist decides they need to use a “polisher” on your teeth you usually think something that will make them shiny and clean looking. However, the sound that comes with using a polisher and the smell of burning teeth is not a fun thing to deal with at 7:30 in the morning.
My second thing to talk about today is the look of my blog. I have decided to change it up and bit and get rid of the ladybug theme for a little while. I want to thank Beth again for the link she gave me for the ladybug template I had before. I still love it, but just was ready for a change. I’m actually getting more and more comfortable with the whole html language that you find in templates. I am also learning that if you do something and you don’t like it you can always fix it. Spacing, headers, graphics, or anything else can be placed and removed with a little patience and time. Let me know what you think of the new layout.
Third topic today is government workers. This is going to be short and sweet. I know that there are probably many out there that are good and competent and do their job well. However, over the last couple of days I have talked to four that are being so difficult that I have literally had to hang up the phone before my head exploded. What is it about government workers (not all…just the ones I have been dealing with) that make it seem like they don’t care about whether or not you get the services you have PAID for?
Fourth, PROJECT RUNWAY is on tonight. I am like a little kid before Christmas. I am anxiously waiting what happens. Someone gets kicked off and I wonder how that will affect the rest of the season….drama, drama, drama. I am so bad about waiting for surprises and I am guilty of searching the internet super highway to see if there are any spoilers out there. Right now it is all guess work, but the guesses are pretty good. I know that there are those out there that do not feel this season is inspired or as good as previous, but I love it….maybe I just love the drama..LOL. I have added a new blog to the right here for those who are interested. It is called Blogging Project Runway (BPR). I love to go here and read what is happening…gives me my fix each week in between shows.
One of my comments asked if I have watched Work Out on Bravo. I have and I have to say that it took seeing the episodes a couple of times before I could safely say that I would be watching the entire season. I have to say that last night watching Jackie interacting with her Mom and her girlfriend was very interesting. When the whole topic of gay marriage came up you could tell that Jackie was torn about what to say to not make the situation worse. I really like Jackie and I think she can do so much better than the lady she is with right now, but it does make for good drama. In addition, who honestly MOONS their boss while their spouse/significant other is around and then wonders why there is a problem. I think that I would fire someone for that behavior…LOL.
I have to say that I am also waiting for an update on my friend’s blog. He is facing a difficult time right now and is being pressured to do something in his life that he does not feel is needed. When I read his words I feel the pain and suffocation that he has in his life. If you have not read his blog you really should check it out. He has an amazing way of writing and it just sucks you into the story.
Well, this is a long enough post for now and I need to get back to work.
Tomorrow I’ll post my thoughts on PR after watching tonight and also give an update on how my workout regimen is going…LOL.
Also, I wanted to let everyone know that two of my other blogs….Bookworms and Connections…will be ending. I just don’t have the time that I really want to be able to put into making them something special. Maybe in the fall once the kids are back into the swing of school.
I will still be writing at Ex-Rays, but have not had any good ex stories as of late.
Until then….Blessings,
Lisa
Monday, July 31, 2006
Reality TV
First of all I have to say that at some point in this entire reality TV craze that has been happening the last few years some network somewhere will come up with the money to buy the rights to all the great reality TV shows at some point. Until then…there is Bravo TV.
I know at least one other fellow blogger is a reality TV addict. I have to say that even Pink Lucy has me beat seeing as she watches Big Brother and a couple of others I don’t watch. I have to say that my tastes for reality TV really revolve around two networks….Fox and Bravo. I watched Survivor for a while and even watched Big Brother the first season, but lost interest pretty quickly. Currently my two favorite reality shows are Project Runway and Top Chef.
Top Chef just finished its first season a few weeks ago and I am so ready for the next season to begin. I know that each of these shows are filmed for 100 or 1000 of hours and only a few hours are cut and spliced together to give us the drama and entertainment we so crave. Why it is so fun for us to look at others on TV and be willing to sit for hours on end watch, re-watch and then discuss and get angry about the next episode.
Project Runway just started its third season and I have to say that I like the designers and setup better this time around. I know that many in the TV industry were criticizing the hurry to get this third season on the air; however, I think that Bravo has done a great job so far. I am really looking forward to the new episode this Wednesday.
I don’t know if Bravo will do another season of BlowOut, but something about Jonathan and his attitude was so interesting to me. I know that the network is trying to capitalize on the Beverly Hills awe by doing the Workout show now, but to be honest I really don’t find any of the people on that show nearly as interesting as the people on BlowOut.
Lastly, I have to say that I also love American Idol. I didn’t get on this band wagon until the second season, but once I watched a full 16 weeks (a college semester…LOL) of the show I was hooked. So much so that I took my oldest daughter to the AI concert last year. Can you believe that? I went as much for Bo Bice as I took her for Carrie Underwood….LOL.
So now, I have to say there are a few reality shows out there that I think should be banned for life. First of all the whole who wants to marry anybody type of shows need to never be broadcast again. Bridezilla, groomzilla or any sort of show that shows people freaking out over their weddings or other events need to be left off the air…in my opinion. Lastly, any reality TV show in which people have to act like total idiots to just get on TV…IE Are you Hot? So you think you can dance? Or America’s got talent….all of these need to go in my opinion….but that is my opinion…
So tell me…do you do reality TV?
I know at least one other fellow blogger is a reality TV addict. I have to say that even Pink Lucy has me beat seeing as she watches Big Brother and a couple of others I don’t watch. I have to say that my tastes for reality TV really revolve around two networks….Fox and Bravo. I watched Survivor for a while and even watched Big Brother the first season, but lost interest pretty quickly. Currently my two favorite reality shows are Project Runway and Top Chef.
Top Chef just finished its first season a few weeks ago and I am so ready for the next season to begin. I know that each of these shows are filmed for 100 or 1000 of hours and only a few hours are cut and spliced together to give us the drama and entertainment we so crave. Why it is so fun for us to look at others on TV and be willing to sit for hours on end watch, re-watch and then discuss and get angry about the next episode.
Project Runway just started its third season and I have to say that I like the designers and setup better this time around. I know that many in the TV industry were criticizing the hurry to get this third season on the air; however, I think that Bravo has done a great job so far. I am really looking forward to the new episode this Wednesday.
I don’t know if Bravo will do another season of BlowOut, but something about Jonathan and his attitude was so interesting to me. I know that the network is trying to capitalize on the Beverly Hills awe by doing the Workout show now, but to be honest I really don’t find any of the people on that show nearly as interesting as the people on BlowOut.
Lastly, I have to say that I also love American Idol. I didn’t get on this band wagon until the second season, but once I watched a full 16 weeks (a college semester…LOL) of the show I was hooked. So much so that I took my oldest daughter to the AI concert last year. Can you believe that? I went as much for Bo Bice as I took her for Carrie Underwood….LOL.
So now, I have to say there are a few reality shows out there that I think should be banned for life. First of all the whole who wants to marry anybody type of shows need to never be broadcast again. Bridezilla, groomzilla or any sort of show that shows people freaking out over their weddings or other events need to be left off the air…in my opinion. Lastly, any reality TV show in which people have to act like total idiots to just get on TV…IE Are you Hot? So you think you can dance? Or America’s got talent….all of these need to go in my opinion….but that is my opinion…
So tell me…do you do reality TV?
Monday July 31, 2006
I guess I owe an update here on my blog to all my readers (I don’t know how many there are, but I know I have a few).
Things here have been busy. I guess this whole summer has been busy, but especially of late things have just snowballed into a huge mess of hurry.
School starts in about a week and a half. I am so ready for it to begin again because at least during the school year there is structure and a more consistent schedule as well as an expectation of what is to be done in the evenings. Right now the kids are getting restless and are just about to drive me and themselves nuts with boredom. Oh well, the joys of summertime.
Another issue that has been taking a lot of my time lately is the state of our finances. I don’t know why, but recently I just seem to be obsessed with getting them in order. I don’t like having debt. In fact about a year ago we refinanced our home and paid off all of our debt except some student loans.
Anyway, I am on a trip here and have been obsessing about every little penny. In addition there have been a couple of issues that have happened in the last six months and we have some more credit card debt that is just eating away at me. I know that we can pay it off fairly quickly, but I was hoping to get some money stashed in savings. To top it all off, we got hit for a charge that is not right in our checking account for the trip my husband took earlier this month. Now we are waiting for the hotel to research the charge (7-10 business days) before we know if we are going to get that money back or not. If it is not one thing…it’s another.
I have also being thinking of my grandmother a lot lately. I don’t know why. It has been almost 5 years since she passed away. She passed away the same year I got divorced, actually she passed and 4 weeks later my divorce was final. Two painful events in the space of a very short time. I think the reason that I have been thinking of her is because I was going through some old boxes this past week and found some letters she mailed to me in college. I read a few of them and most were of what was going on in her life and what they were doing on a daily basis, but something about them left an aching in me that I have not felt for her before. I guess it is just old emotions coming up.
Well, I am at work today. I don’t want to be here. Not because I don’t like what/where I am. I just wish I could have slept better. I’m having a heck of a time getting to sleep at night. Unfortunately, I don’t have the luxury of having summer vacation and must do the daily grind every week. Why is it that I can go to bed at a decent hour Friday and Saturday nights and wake up at 6 am ready to face the day on the weekend? However, during the week my mind just won’t shut off and I am up watching History channel or a movie until midnight or so. Then I am exhausted the next day. I don’t want to start (again) taking any type of sleep meds. About a year ago I got addicted and had terrible withdrawals when I finally came off of them. I thought about talking to my doctor about it when I go for an appointment I have in a week or so. Not really sure though!
Well, that is enough of my ramblings for now. Hope all is well.
Blessings,
Lisa
Things here have been busy. I guess this whole summer has been busy, but especially of late things have just snowballed into a huge mess of hurry.
School starts in about a week and a half. I am so ready for it to begin again because at least during the school year there is structure and a more consistent schedule as well as an expectation of what is to be done in the evenings. Right now the kids are getting restless and are just about to drive me and themselves nuts with boredom. Oh well, the joys of summertime.
Another issue that has been taking a lot of my time lately is the state of our finances. I don’t know why, but recently I just seem to be obsessed with getting them in order. I don’t like having debt. In fact about a year ago we refinanced our home and paid off all of our debt except some student loans.
Anyway, I am on a trip here and have been obsessing about every little penny. In addition there have been a couple of issues that have happened in the last six months and we have some more credit card debt that is just eating away at me. I know that we can pay it off fairly quickly, but I was hoping to get some money stashed in savings. To top it all off, we got hit for a charge that is not right in our checking account for the trip my husband took earlier this month. Now we are waiting for the hotel to research the charge (7-10 business days) before we know if we are going to get that money back or not. If it is not one thing…it’s another.
I have also being thinking of my grandmother a lot lately. I don’t know why. It has been almost 5 years since she passed away. She passed away the same year I got divorced, actually she passed and 4 weeks later my divorce was final. Two painful events in the space of a very short time. I think the reason that I have been thinking of her is because I was going through some old boxes this past week and found some letters she mailed to me in college. I read a few of them and most were of what was going on in her life and what they were doing on a daily basis, but something about them left an aching in me that I have not felt for her before. I guess it is just old emotions coming up.
Well, I am at work today. I don’t want to be here. Not because I don’t like what/where I am. I just wish I could have slept better. I’m having a heck of a time getting to sleep at night. Unfortunately, I don’t have the luxury of having summer vacation and must do the daily grind every week. Why is it that I can go to bed at a decent hour Friday and Saturday nights and wake up at 6 am ready to face the day on the weekend? However, during the week my mind just won’t shut off and I am up watching History channel or a movie until midnight or so. Then I am exhausted the next day. I don’t want to start (again) taking any type of sleep meds. About a year ago I got addicted and had terrible withdrawals when I finally came off of them. I thought about talking to my doctor about it when I go for an appointment I have in a week or so. Not really sure though!
Well, that is enough of my ramblings for now. Hope all is well.
Blessings,
Lisa
Thursday, July 27, 2006
Still Here....
I am still here and have lots of things that I will probably write about over the next couple of days, but have been so busy.
Hope you are all well out in blogger land.
Blessings,
Lisa
Hope you are all well out in blogger land.
Blessings,
Lisa
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