Harry Potter and The Order of the Phoenix

I have to give this movie Five Stars because it was THAT good.

This movie is great from the beginning because we see the return of the Dursley’s who have not been in an HP film in what seems like ages. The dementors are also back and they look even scarier than they did in HP3. I have to say that I really liked the special effects that were used in this part of the movie. The dementors are no longer wearing hooded cloaks, so you see their “faces” and to be honest if I met one on the street I would probably faint dead away. The way the patronus charm is shown to work is also amazing with the dementor rolling and flying right off the screen. If this had been a 3D movie it would have landed in your lap.

The movie follows the book pretty closely and if you have a hard time understanding a few things in the movie it would be wise to read the book. JK Rowling has always done a great job at the beginning of every book catching the reader up (as best she can) with what has happened previous. I’m sure it gets harder as the books get more involved and longer, but she does her best.

The best parts of the movie were the battle between Voldemort and Dumbledore, Grimmauld Place, the return of Mrs. Weasley, Lupin and Sirus Black. Plus you get to see some of the new characters from the book. Bellatrix Lestrange is also in the movie, but not until almost the very end. Helena Bonham Carter plays this part perfectly and I would have loved to see her more, but hopefully she will return in HP6. You still have the other regular Death Eaters (Malfoy, Crabbe, Goyle, etc). The scene at the end where Harry and his friends are at the Department of Mysteries at the Ministry of Magic is great. It doesn’t play out quite like the book, but it is really good. You get to see how much each of them has grown and learned in the last five years.

Lastly, I really liked the way the movie showed the Room of Requirement and Harry training the students. Overall, I think this was a great part of the movie and really showed a future for Harry either as teacher or as a Dark Wizard hunter.

I know there is more that I am missing, but overall I have to say that this movie is my favorite so far….in addition with David Yates directing HP6 (which is due out next summer) we should be able to get a better understanding of the wizarding world.

Upcoming Posts

OK people I have just about finished the post on Lesbian baby showers...it should be up by end of day tomorrow.

Also, I will be reviewing Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix...saw it last night...SO GOOD.

Apologies....to Terri

I missed a lurker yesterday and I truly apologize. I have been having issues with gmail the last few days. It has been dumping all of my email into my spam folder. So I have been just skimming through it looking for valid emails. Therefore, I missed this new person...

Terri - I truly apologize! I have visited your blog and it very entertaining. I love the way you write and I will be back for more....

Please hit up her blog and leave a comment!

The Ruddell Times

New Lurkers

OK so a few days ago I asked all of you lurkers out there to please drop me an email or a comment so that I could have a few more blogs to visit and read...and guess what...I got three new links. I have included them below as well as in my side bar.

Please give a shout out to these guys!

BrianinMpls - Funny freaking blog. This guy has me in stitches.....love it

Augs-Casa - I think he belongs to DraMa who I love and I love this blog...will be visiting more often.

Zap - OMG this guy had me rolling in the floor with his post about what he would do with three weeks left to live. Go check him out...he loves his family and is a funny guy!

I am still taking "applications" for new links in my side bar (basically if you want to get listed let me know). I do visit all those blogs every week at some point...I may not always comment...but I read.

Laterz!

Another Funny

Another Funny for Slick

A young woman buys a mirror at an antique shop, and hangs it on her bathroom door.

One evening, while getting undressed, she playfully says "Mirror, mirror, on my door, make my bustline forty four".Instantly, there is a brilliant flash of light, and her breasts grow to enormous proportions.

Excitedly, she runs to tell her husband what happened, and in minutes they both return.

This time the husband crosses his fingers and says "Mirror mirror on the door, make my penis touch the floor!".

Again, there's a bright flash ... and then his legs fall off!

It’s that time again….Vote for a blog entry

I have been mulling over several blog entries, but just can’t seem to figure out what I want to do my next entry on. Since it has worked so well in the past I thought I would ask all of you to vote on what you would like my next blog entry to be:

Pedicures for Men

Damn Women Drivers

As You Wish

Lesbian Baby Showers (no offense here, just something I observed recently)

Willacopy Ultra Premium paper

Please vote via comments or email me


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My Last Holiday

EC over at Whatever Blows My Skirt asked a question today based on seeing this--->movie. She asked if you were given three weeks to live, what would you do with your last remaining days on this earth....and you only had the money available to you now....So I decided rather than post a comment I would post a blog entry. I know you are all waiting on pins and needles for my response...(I am delusional I know this). So here it is....

If I were given three weeks to live I would cash in my 401k and my other savings. I would take my family on a fabulous beach vacation to Bahamas or Jamaica or somewhere like that. Once there I would rent the best hotel I could afford and order a nice bottle(s) of wine and room service. Once we were all stuffed on good food and good wine we would make our way down to the beach for a nap on the sandy shore. I would also do something adventurous like sky divining, scuba diving, bungee jumping or snorkeling....something that would make my heart race and that my kids would remember in the years to come.

I would also take the time to write out cards for my kids for all the important events that I would be missing in their lives (16th birthdays, graduation, weddings, and first babies). I would do this so that they would know when these special events came around in their life that I was thinking of them and their futures. I know sounds kind of creepy, but hey....I plan on returning to haunt them from the grave anyway...evil grin ;>)

Lastly, I would try and make peace with some of these people that I have wronged in the past. My ex, my mom, my brother and whom ever else I could get a hold of in time. Mostly I would just spend time loving up on my family. I would want them to know that more than anything in this world I love them and that they are my life.

Oh and I would eat all the ice cream and candy I wanted....

What would you do?

Post a comment with a link to your blog so we can read your response!

Blonde Joke for a Saturday

A blonde desperately needed some money, so she decided to kidnap someone.

So she went to the park and she grabbed this kid.Then she wrote a note saying, "If you ever want to see your child again, leave 10,000 dollars in a paper bag in the northwest corner of the park." then she signed it 'THE BLONDE' and told the kid to give it to his mom.

The next day she went to the northwest corner of the park and got the paper bag. It had the money in it and a note from the mother that said, "How could you do this to another blonde?"

For Slick - Subject: Women's Words

My Aunt (a very wise woman) sent this to me...and I thought that I would put it here for SLICK

9 words women use

1. Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2. Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour.Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3. Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something,and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

4. Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

5.Loud Sigh: This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6. That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7. Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say you're welcome.

8. Whatever: Is a women's way of saying F*@& YOU!

9. Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement,meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking "What's wrong?" For the woman's response refer to #3.

Calling All Lurkers - 2nd Chance

Earlier this week I posted this asking all the lurkers out there to at least email me. Now I see that there are more of you. I had one person email me and I will be adding his link soon...I just need to get a couple of formatting things done first.

Anyway, please email me your link or post a comment. I would love to have new blogs to read and comment on.

Lisa

Going Green...sort of

Ok so I promised a post about a new purchase I made this last week...actually more like two days ago. Anyway, this all starts with a story....and it goes a little something like this....


Once upon a time there was a family that had two cars, one was a 2003 Toyota Camry (aka Family Car) and the second car was a 1998 Nissan Altima (aka POS). Both of these cars served the family well and got them to and from the destinations that they needed to be at on a daily basis.

However the POS was on its last leg. It had over 175,000 miles on its poor odometer and no matter how hard they tried, running it in reverse just did not seem to make the mileage go down…(Ferris Buller). This was evident on July 3, 2007 when the POS decided to take a huge dump on the highway and leave said driver stranded in 115º heat. Once the tow truck was called and the said driver was picked up and re-hydrated it was off to the showroom floor.

Nice new models that smelled good and had leather interior, fresh paint, new shiny tires and not a speck of dust on them awaited us. As we walked through the lot it was clear that we would be driving home something new…..my heart was set on a new Camry because hello we already have one and know what a great car it is….plus new V6 engine…VVVOOORRROOOMM.

However, said driver had another idea….let’s try the Prius he says. 60 MPG and it operates on a battery…NO THANKS VVVVOOORRROOOOMMM V6 baby….ok fine I’ll drive the damn “go green” car, but I won’t like it you can’t make me. Oh…this is nice…what it only takes $800/year to run this thing on gas…$800 divided by 12 equals lots of nights of poker at the local casino….what I get a $1,500 dollar tax CREDIT on my 2007 taxes, what it is going to cost $2,000 to fix the POS….where do I sign….

So now we are the owners of a brand new 2007 Toyota Prius….and I have to say going green is pretty cool!!!! LOL Below is a picture of the basic car we got...ours has leather (yes, I killed 2 1/2 cows for my seats and has tinted windows) The color is basically the same.

This link is driving me nuts

Ok...one more here....I'm trying to post this link again


New York Ticket Broker

I wonder...

I wonder if I can post all of these links in one post and still get paid for it...hhmmm...I'm gonna try with a couple...so please be patient with me...

New York Ticket Broker

NC Waterfront Property

Funeral Insurance

Cookware

Automotive detailing supplies

Real Estate


The above are links that I was provided by PayU2blog. They are for products that they have asked me to place links within a post to earn extra $$/month. Some of them I think are great, some of them I have no idea on how/what to use and others...well I could never afford. One great thing about this particular type of blogging is that I get to go to sites that I would normally never find or get to see. For example, the funeral insurance, I would never have thought to Google that....or the cookware...I found lots of kitchen things I would want on that site, but man...I don't think I could get my husband to agree to a whole new sets of pots and pans...lol. Lastly, the Automotive detailing supplies...I looked at the site and fell in love with the cars on there....but man I wouldn't know how to use any of that stuff...and if I did attempt to use it....um I would probably end up in the ER....

Anyway, those are my assignments for this week. Hopefully, now I will get a few more to do this weekend.

Hope all is well....I'll have a new post about a new purchase I made up today sometime...it is really good!

Happy 4th of July

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All you lurkers --- Come Out & Play

Ok I see you over there in my side bar….on my blog log box…I see you over there lurking and reading what I have to say….I see you…but guess what…you don’t know that do you!!!

Anyway, this post is going out to all you out there who are lurkers….if you come to read on a regular basis and don’t comment (that’s fine) or if you come because you don’t have anything better to do than read my dribble (that’s also fine).

I ask one favor….send me an email with your blog/website so that I can update my sidebar…..tomorrow is a holiday for me and I will be using it to do several things…but one of them is updating my Blogs of Interest…however, I want to open this up to more than just bloggers….if you have any website you would like to have listed in which you are personally involved in maintaining OR in publishing…either leave me a comment or send me an email….and I’ll put you in my links area…FREE OF CHARGE…LOL

Have a great day!

New Home Bug

I know this sounds crazy with all of the stuff going on in my personal and professional life right now, but I have the new home bug. Not even new….just different. I have been thinking lately and even with all of the stuff going on in my life, I really think I might be ready for a change of scenery. So I went searching on-line for homes in my area….and wow…there are a lot of homes.

For example, this home which is just one zip code over from where I live (about 5 miles to be exact) is selling for almost $3.3 million dollars. I think that would qualify as a luxury home…wouldn’t you. This place is gorgeous….and I would love to just walk through the property….but I don’t think they let you in without a credit check…and I would probably fail…lol

Oh well, on to upgrading where I currently live…LOL

Walk toward the light….or NOT

This weekend was crazy. I had to drive 6 hours to get my kids back from my parents house….in addition, I learned that my car needs about $500 worth of work. To top that off…my parents got a new car….can you say ENVY!

On happier news…I got a new chandelier for my dining room. The one that was in there was so old. It was part of the “price of the house” and I can’t even bring myself to post a picture of it. However, I am happy to say that I bought this one online (see pic below) for about half of what I would have found it at Home Depot or Lowes by going to this website ---> chandeliers <---recommended by my good friend Joy.

Now, if I could only get that bedroom painted!!!!

Office Supplies

I am a self professed office supply junkie. I have had this problem for quite sometime. I can get lost in places like Office Depot, Staples and even the office supply section of Wal-Mart. Something about being among new pens, pencils etc….makes me happy. I have been known to buy a package of pens and not open them for six months because I really didn’t need them but I liked the packaging or the colors. Usually by the time I get around to using them they are dried out or not good anymore.

On my desk alone at work I have a mesh wire cup that holds all of my writing instruments…pens, pencils, sharpies, highlighters…etc. I am officially grounded from the office supply catalog at work because I tend to go a little crazy on the writing utensils. I mean who really needs 8 different colors of Uni-Ball Gel Pens 5.0 point…not me…but guess what I’ve got a blue, a green, a red, a black and a pink. How special is that.

I do have to say that although I do love the Uni-Ball Gel Pens the most I am a sucker for FREE Pens. These usually come with some sort of marketing on them, Joe’s Crab Shack, ABC Bank International (now with 3 branches to serve you) International my ASS!, First Community Church where you matter, Bridgestone keeps you on the road….etc. Why am I a sucker for these pens? I’ll tell you why because they are great for keeping in my purse, my car, and my backpack etc….I can use them and lose them and not feel awful about it.

Anyway, all of this to say that if you need pens for your business look no further than here--->PENS.

This has been a sponsored post.

PayU2Blog

OK peeps, don’t get angry with me, but I have signed up to be part of the whole pay to blog world. I’m not sure if I will really get much out of it, but at least it will make for interesting topics to post about. Plus, I mean who really couldn’t use an extra $5/month..that will buy…um…well…let me get back to you on that…

Anyway, just know that if you see me blogging about things that are out of the ordinary it is probably an assignment that I got to write about. You can comment, click on the link, ignore it whatever…..

Have a great weekend!!!

Betrayed Again.....

OK, I’m having a minor setback on the home front. Things were going really well, and then last night my husband and I were talking and some things were brought to my attention. I am just numb and hurt right now.

About two weeks ago when all of this was really coming to a head and we were trying to decide what to do with our marriage and our life, I gave him a stipulation….you want to stay married you end all contact with this girl. And he said he did, and I believed him.

Last night after reading in a book recommended by his counselor his asked if we could turn off the TV and chat. So I did and I turned to him and asked what was up. He said that in his last session with his counselor he told him that he was having a hard time giving up the emotions and contact with this girl. I guess he admitted to the counselor that he was still emailing/chatting at work with this girl. She apparently was shocked/hurt/angry that he ended it and was doing her best to try and stay in contact with him.

I guess his counselor told him that he needed to have a physical one-on-one confrontation and tell her that it is over that that all contact needed to stop. I guess he did that this last week and all contact has stopped….but here is my issue:

I feel like last night he was telling me this because he was feeling guilty for “lying” about ending contact with her and he felt like he needed Kudos or something for “doing the right” thing. I swear I was so upset and shocked. I told him that I hoped his conscience was clear now because he had unloaded on me and basically lied about all the things I had asked him about in regards to her over the last several weeks. I really feel like he could have gone the rest of our married life and not shared this with me. In addition, I was so angry that I finally said that I never wanted to hear about her again….that if he decided that he still needed a relationship with her (friendship or otherwise) that I didn’t want to know about it. I guess she still wants them to be platonic friends….and he says he has told her he can’t do that….I also said that if there are any coffee dates, lunches or “meetings” with her that the least he could do was make sure that I didn’t find out about it. And she also told him that while she is sorry that I found out…HE should have been smarter about deleting the IM’s/emails

He also asked me a few weeks ago to stop the hounding/accusations because they were wearing him out and he felt like it was counter productive to trying to make things work….so I did. I stopped completely (not easily…and I don’t do cold turkey well). I would not ask about her I would not asked what he was doing I would not accuse him of anything and I guess that has got his radar up because he said that I have been very calm and eerily quiet about the whole issue….which is true. However, I was/am mostly just tired of fighting.

Anyway, that is my home life in a nutshell (look I’m in a nutshell..lol)….I’m sorry for the run on sentences and incoherence of this post….any questions/comments will be considered…lol

Pigeon Forge Cabin Rental

OK guys, you have got to check out this link

Pigeon Forge cabin rental

Now don’t let the link fool you, when I first initially saw this link and the description on it I thought who would rent pigeon cabins for a week or longer. I mean you really have to be a bird lover to want to rent cabins for pigeons to nest in on a daily/weekly/monthly basis.

However, once I looked closer (cause you know I‘ve got to click a link that talks about pigeon cabin rentals) I realized that it is a website for the rental of cabins (see I was right) for PEOPLE….duh…..in Pigeon Forge, TN….big DUH.

Now the reason I posted this link is not to make you all go yes you are dumb and we are here to prove it to you….NO….I already have this knowledge and I in no way need it pointed out to me further. However, what intrigued me most about this website is the pictures of the view and the cabins themselves. If I was a millionaire (or even a little well off) I would totally camp my booty out at one of these places and never leave. I mean if I could do that I would have food brought in, a bellman (handsome of course, with great abs) to flick the channels and refill my wine glass, and a permanent masseuse (or a male version of this masseur?) at my beck and call.

For example, look at this photo Who wouldn’t want to stay in a cabin called Altitude Adjustment or Perfect Day! I mean really!!!

So that is my goal…one day when life is easier and my day to day is not so day to day….I will go to Pigeon Forge, TN…I will stay in the Perfect Day cabin….and if I’m really adventurous….my bellman Carlos (hunka, hunka) will be there to wait on me….

Now back to reality people!!!!!

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Pass the Tequila….I’ve got the Lemons

Seems that life lately has got it in for me. From what is going on in my personal life, my ex giving me hell, and work now on my case I just can’t seem to get out of this rut that is my life. I feel like I have been given a case of lemons with no water or sugar to make lemonade…..Well, as a wise woman once told me (Love you Sherry) screw the lemonade….Pass the Tequila…..

Life as I know it right now is crazy. I am holding onto my marriage by a very thin, very fragile thread. Things are getting better day by day, but there is still a lot of anger and hurt that I am working through. Although, the trust is starting to come back….slowly.

My ex is a jerk. Our youngest needs some orthodontist treatment and his wife is such a B**CH, she wants a completed financial breakdown of the whole process….which I am fine with…however, my problem comes when she sends him to do her dirty work. I don’t have a problem getting them this information…I don’t have a problem sharing that information. However, when the two of them fight or are not getting along, he attacks me…and I hate it.

Lastly, I guess my work hours are in question. My boss pulled me into his office on Monday to tell me that while my work product is fine the hours I spend actually at the office has got to get more routine. He says my kids have been having too many appointments over the last several months and then me taking off a couple of Fridays does not make for a good working relationship.

I was not surprised by this conversation, but let me say that I’M BORED. I have NOTHING to work on come Friday. I will not sit around with nothing to do and he is refusing to give me more projects, so what am I to do….I guess they hired me to occupy a chair regardless of the work that I have to get done….oh well, guess I’ll be updating my resume….

Well, it is HUMP DAY and I am ready for the week to end. My kids have been out of town with my parents all week. I am ready to see them, you never realize how much you miss those little rug rats until they are gone….

In happier news…Meet LOLA….our new puppy. She comes home on July 5th!

My visit with fellow blogger(s)

I hope this doesn’t freak Andrew out…..but I have been dreaming about him for the last two nights. I don’t know why exactly because its not like we have every met. However, I have had two very vivid dreams in which he played a huge roll the last two nights.

My first dream was of me hanging out with him and the gang at some of the local spots he talks about. Then we hiked out across the river and sat and watched the trains go by for what seemed like hours. Next thing I knew we were going through his new home and I was admiring his hardwood floors thinking they must be a bitch to keep shiny.

Last nights dream we were playing cards. I don’t even know if he likes card games, but we were playing UNO and SkipBo. I don’t know why, but we also had several other bloggers there including, DraMa, EC, Slick and Annabel. We were all just hanging out playing games and laughing. Then for some reason we were all on the second level of Andrew’s house….but here’s the thing…from the pictures he has posted there is no second level….so what’s up with that.

Anyway….anyone wanting to analyze my dream(s) is more than welcome….

Leave it to DraMa…LOL

I’ll admit that I have had a few downer posts of late….but who wouldn’t with what has been going on in my life….but leave it to my blogging friend DraMa to lay it all out there….

"Ok, one thing you said stood out... You don't want to leave
him home alone?The way I see it is if you do go out and he does contact this
woman or meet up with her, he is still cheating and you should leave him.
However, if you stay home and "babysit" him and he would rather be with this
other woman at that moment, you aren't doing anything to save your marriage.
What I'm saying is that no matter what you decide to do that night, you are
being counterproductive for yourself and him. If you don't have trust you don't
have a marriage... and it's not fair to put yourself through that. If you go out
and he remains faithful, then maybe you have a chance and maybe he'll
change."

You know what…she’s right….and guess what…I’m going out tomorrow night….

Another thing…..I had a dream about a fellow blogger last night…I’ll write a post on it later today….nothing bad or sexual (darn it) just friendly….

What tomorrow brings

Well here I am in week two of trying to save my marriage. I’m not sure how it’s going to be honest. I’ve been more irritable lately and more on edge. I can’t seem to sleep and when I do it is fitful. I am throwing myself into work, but by the time I get home I am good for nothing. All I want to do is sleep. I think depression is setting in.

A good friend of mine called me the other day to see if I would go to dinner with her this week. I really want to, but it is on a night that the kids are with their Dad and I just don’t feel right leaving my husband at home alone. I know that sounds like I am treating him like a little kid, but right now it’s all I can do to let him go to work without wanting to question his every move.

I have called a couple of counselors and they are both booked until August. I have upped my dosage of anxiety/depression meds (per my Dr. recommendation) until I can get into see someone. Man, depression sucks!

I am trying to find a place online that will allow me to write for money. I know this sounds far fetched, but I would really like to someday get paid for writing. I know this will never happen, but I love to put words on paper (mostly handwritten) and I would love to be able to share what I have written with others beyond this blog.

I have gotten some really nice comments from newbies and oldbies (is that a word) and I really appreciate all of them. To all of you who emailed me privately…THANKS SO MUCH. To all of those who left encouraging comments and advice…THANKS SO MUCH….

While things aren’t great yet….each day gets better!

Why Do I Keep Marrying My Mother?

Needless to say some of you are going to look at that title and say what? Why would she think she is marrying her Mother? However, if you give me a few moments I promise you I will be able to bring it all back around to this title. Here we go.....

As a child, my Mother scared the be-jesus out of me. She was definitely the one in the family that wore the pants. She ruled the roost and made sure my brother and I knew it. From my observation, she had my Dad pretty hen-pecked as well because he was always at her beck and call. Don't get me wrong, my Dad is a man and he does he job as far as being head of the family, but my Mother can pretty much get whatever she wants from him.

As a child I grew up wanting only to please her and make her happy. I would do almost anything to keep from getting in trouble...including doing the wrong things like lying, cheating etc. It was approval I looked for from her and when I didn't get it I was crushed. I got pregnant in college out of wedlock by a man that my parents hated. I had the baby and ended up marrying this man to spite my parents. I wanted to prove to them that we would work and that I knew better.

Unfortunately, I didn't know better. About 5 years and 500 miles from my family later he decided he didn't want to be with me anymore. I begged, I cried, I did everything I could think of to get him to stay with me. I wanted his approval and I wanted to be loved by him. He still didn't want me despite my best efforts to get him to stay.

A year later I met my now husband and I thought things would be different. Our "honeymoon" period lasted longer and without kids together we were able to really spend some good one on one time together when my kids were gone. We would go to dinner, plays, movies, shopping so many different things that just helped us bond. I really thought we had a lot in common....however, as the the years have passed I am noticing a drift and now he has done the same thing as my last husband. I still want his love and approval, but I'm not sure he can give it to me.

This goes back to my title why do I keep marrying my Mother? Well, I'll tell you.....I want approval from those who are supposed to be closest to me and love me unconditionally. I need to see in their eyes that they think I am worthwhile and lovable. When I don't get that I plant another seed of doubt in myself that eventually grows to be a really big weed. I am trying to get past approvals of others, but it is so hard.

One great thing that has come of my past is that I do not allow my daughters to thrive on my approval....meaning I make sure to let them know I love them regardless of the bad stuff they do. Yes, they do get punished and yes they hate me for it. But when it is all said and done, I always follow-up with a pep talk and hugs and kisses. I never got that. I am hoping this is a way to reverse the cycle. I don't want my girls looking for their value in men or the approval of others.

Advice for today...........Don't Marry Your Mother!

Forgiveness ≠ Trust

I signed onto the computer at home hoping to be able to get on and off in a few minutes. My cousin had sent me a text message asking if we could talk via IM about the upcoming family reunion. As I signed on I noticed that the IM program was already running, looking closer I saw that my user id was not the id that was signed on. I clicked to open it and see which of the kids had been online chatting with their friends. Imagine my surprise to see that my husband had an account and had a girl as his only friend on his list.

I did some investigating. I looked at old saved conversations and my world came crashing down. As I read what he and this girl wrote back and forth I physically wanted to puke. I wanted to stop reading, but my brain just kept scrolling through the lines…

“You want some cookies” she asked

His reply “Cookies sound good. What kind of cookies?”

“You know the kind that melt in your mouth.”

“Those are my favorite kind. Would you serve them to me in bed?”

“Of course, after I had screwed (insert more vile word here) your brains out and you were famished.”

“I can’t wait to see you again ;(“ He replied

“Can you get away Wednesday after work? Jay is out of town and we would be all alone?”

“Would I get my cookies then?”

“And then some…..;))” she answered.

At this point I was shaking. I called my cousin telling her we would have to get together later that something had come up. I immediately went to the living room where my husband was watching TV. The kids had gone outside to play and I point blank asked him if he had been having inappropriate conversations with anyone online. He flatly denied it, but the look on his face gave it all away. He was involved with someone and it wasn’t me. He was having an emotional affair.

All of the events happened in a matter of minutes, but to me time stood still. I packed a bag for myself and the kids and headed to my best friends house to vent. I couldn’t be with him at that moment. He had lied to me and broken a sacred promise to love, honor and cherish only me until we died. I had already been through a marriage with a cheating spouse and he knew how I felt about that topic. However, he was now a cheater and I was crushed. The next few days vacillated between flying by and moving at a snails pace. I cussed at him, I yelled at him, I cried, I accused him of awful things, but mostly I was hurt and scared.

What did this mean for my future? How would I support my kids on my own? He had no financial obligation to me or them since they were from my first marriage. How could I be so stupid to allow this to happen to me again? What was wrong/broken in me to make two men cheat on me? What had I done to deserve this? How was I going to pick myself up and survive this again?

All of these questions swirled through my mind over the next few days as we started picking up the pieces of our broken marriage. Trust had been lost and that is a hard pill to swallow. No words could make it better. No words could excuse what had happened. No touch, no kiss, no look could take away the hurt that we both felt and the failure we both were a party to. Nothing said would ever be trusted again. Nothing would ever be the same again.

We meet with the pastor of our church and he assured us that we could make it through this. My husband swore that while what I read in the IM conversations told the opposite he had never been sexual with this person. He said they had talked about it, but the opportunity had never presented itself. In addition, he said he was glad that it came out when it did because now there were no secrets. We have been counseled by many, our pastor, a marriage therapist, and individual counselors to try and make this marriage work.

We've gone on romantic dates and we take walks together. We turn off the TV when the kids are not around and actually talk to each other. More than anything, we have had to learn to listen to each other and be friends again. I want answers that he didn’t have. He has questions that I can't answer. In the end, we both own a part of this infidelity.

This has only recently taken place. In fact it has been less than two weeks since I learned of these conversations. I have gone from wanting to divorce him to wanting to work it out to wanting to cheat myself to wondering if I can trust him again.

One thing I have learned through all of this……Forgiveness does not equal Trust

I may never have the trust with this man again…..and if I can’t get it back…..I can’t live in a marriage like that.

If today is better than yesterday...

will tomorrow be better than today? I hope so.

This last week of my life has been pure hell. The only other time I have felt this way is when my first husband told me he wanted a divorce and was leaving me for another woman. Now, all those emotions and feelings are back and are so raw that I just can’t seem to get through the day without losing my mind.

For those interested here is the Readers Digest version of what is going on. About a month ago my husband met a lady at work who shared similar interests with him. He told me that he was going to meet her a few times for coffee and to go over some designs she was/is working on for a project at work. I was fine with it because he had finally found a friend that had an interest in a hobby that he did.

So I didn’t have a problem with them meeting for coffee or going out to draw…etc. Anyway, one thing led to another and one night he spent 3 ½ hours on the computer in an instant messenger conversation with her. I had a huge problem with that because I just didn’t like the fact that this new friend was taking so much of his time. So I began snooping. Which was probably not the right thing to do, but women know when something is up.

I knew his passwords to his email and IM account. I started by changing the setting to save copies of his conversations with her and I also went looking at his email. Sure enough after about two days there were several conversations and also several inappropriate emails back and forth. After leaving the house for a night and yelling every name in the book at him. I decided that I had to try and get to the bottom of this.

We have started therapy (individually and as a couple), met with the pastor of our church and also have been given some really good reading material for our marriage. However, my trust has been broken and I am having a hard time really processing how this could have happened to me again. He swears it wasn’t sexual and that they never were physical with each other. All my friends are telling me to leave him and let him fend for himself, but I just can’t give up on this that easily.

To top it all off, my Mom is having health crisis as well. She had some test run about a month ago and we are waiting on the results of a more recent CT Scan, but it looks like she may have cancer. Not sure what kind yet, but on top of all this other crap I am having to deal with the fact that my Mom may be VERY sick.

I have not shared this ordeal with my parents. If I did, they would flip and I don’t want to deal with that right now. In addition, they have enough to deal with and I don’t want to put more stress on them.

I have missed being able to put my thoughts down on “paper” and have learned that this form of communication is quite therapeutic for me. I know my husband would disagree about putting our problems out on the internet for the world to see….but who cares. This is my therapy and I need it to be able to sort through thoughts, feelings, & emotions. Right now, he doesn’t have a say so in this…..

One important thing I have learned over the last week or so is that Forgiveness does not equal Trust!

Thanks for all the comments and well wishes. I appreciate them all.

A short explanation

Well, it has been a while since I've been here and while I don't want to give a lot of details I have to say that my marriage is in jeapardy and also my mental state is not good.

I have learned some things recently about my husband that have left me feeling betrayed, lost and alone.

I will still be blogging and hope to be back to it soon. I still read each of your blogs daily. I comment sometimes and then other times I don't. Know that I here reading and enjoying your stories. Please be patient with me while I figure things out.

I'm here....

I am having a couple of personal crisis right now.

I'll be back when I'm sane!

What LOST is really about

OK I have to say that I haven’t watched LOST since the first season. However, I did happen to catch the update thing they did a couple of weeks ago to get you all caught up for the season finale (yes final with an E). I was not really that into it to begin with, but now they have added more characters and layers so that even if you thought you knew what was going on you really didn’t.

Let’s start from the beginning. You are supposed to believe that all these people survived this explosion of a plane in air and survived long enough to end up on a island where nobody can find them…..essentially they are LOST…..ha ha ha…then you learn later that they are no longer the only living creatures (notice I didn’t say humans) on the island…

So you are basically left hanging wondering if they are ever going to get found after being LOST or if they are forever stuck on this island…now here are a few of my theories….NONE of which are even probably close to correct….

1. We have a Dallas moment at the end of the series when one of the characters wakes up to find out that they just had the most awesome intense dream ever and every one of the people in the show are somehow related to them or involved in their life in some way…


2. We find out that they are really stuck on an island and that the “others” know about how to get off the island, but because they need baby reproducing machines (i.e. women) they are not about to let them go….only to find out later that they are really just about 12 miles of the coast of some mainland and have been a basic science experiment all along.


3. We find out that some rich dude has paid to keep them on this island to fulfill his own weird fantasy of people being thrown into a survival situation and he watches it as if it is his own personal reality TV show.


4. We find out that Weight Watchers and Nutri-System all have been secretly video taping all the survivors on the island and are going to use the video to show how they are able to help people lose weight be being stranded on a deserted island….however they will not show Hurley because even after three seasons he is still the same size!!!


5. We find out they are all in purgatory and that God and Satan are playing a game of checkers with their eternal souls and when one of them says “King ME!” someone else dies….

That is about all I got….sorry for the lame post!

Check back because I’m also going to do a post for Slick (Manly scents from Bath and Body Works) and EC (Post its).

And the Winner is...

What LOST is really about.

I've been gone a few days because of the long three day weekend...which actually was four days for me...because I took Friday off. I got no kids tomorrow so I will post the brilliant post as to what LOST is really about.....

It’s that time again…

I have several ideas for a post, but am not sure what I want to write about…so I’m going back to another post and am letting you pick what you want to hear about :

1. Why American Idol Sucks
2. What LOST is really about
3. Super Sticky Post It’s vs. Generic
4. Bath & Body Works (New Scents for Men)
5. Turn on the Radio….wait I need to say something first….Turn on the Radio

So Which one will it be?

It’s time for all you lurkers to post a comment and let me know!!!!!!

American Idol Tonight

Will I be watching....Yes...am I happy with the two finalists....NO. I wish that Melinda was still in it and I honestly think that the producers did a little tweaking and "fixed" it so that it would be Blake and Jordyn. I am not sure who will win....but being that I live in AZ I will be hoping for Jordin.

Another thing I hate these Match.com commericials....Its OK to look...no its not....come on now....that is the stupidest tag line ever....and Dr. Phil...love some of his advice and I hope he got paid a load of money to do those commericals.

Another commerical that runs here in the Phx. area that makes me nuts if for a strip club. It is called Babes Cabert.....and it is so stupid. Meet me at the 44th street office....oh you mean Babes Cabert....no...we are calling it the 44th street office...all of this is done via office email...between guys in the office....OMG if this was really done in this day and age...HR would be all over that so fast....stupid commericial...

OK...I'm Done!

Almost End of May

Here it is the 21st of May and I realize that it has been a while since I have posted anything of significance here on my blog. I really don’t have an excuse other than to say that I am not really sure what happened. Everyday I thought about posting something and then the day got away from me and I got tired and decided that I would do it tomorrow.

Well, today is that tomorrow. I am here and I am going to post something…I’m not sure what yet, but something….

Let’s start with Friday night. I got home after a long hard day at work. My boss’s father passed away, the owner of the company’s wife was expecting a baby and my ex and I got into a huge fight over stupid braces for one of our children. Long story short I was not in a mood to go out. I was tired, had a headache and was overall in a bad mood. However, I got up, showered, changed clothes and headed out to meet some friends for a few drinks and to catch the Suns game….they lost…AAAGGG and it was such a good game. However, they were just emotionally and physically spent and I have to say that if you are a Spurs fan…shame on you or shame on the Spurs. They played dirty the whole series and the suspension of the two Suns players and basically no punishment for the Spurs was just wrong.

Anyway, beyond that it was a great time on Friday after I got up and moving. I went to the sports bar and started drinking and kept drinking right through the game…into the entertainment and it was just a blast….I was home early though…

On Saturday morning I did what I had needed to do for a week….I slept in until about 10 am. The only reason I woke up is because I had to let in a delivery man that was dropping off the mattress for my daughter’s new bed. Then I got up did some laundry, cleaned my house and got ready for the day. Ended up in downtown at my daughters cheerleading competition and spent about 4 hours to many there.

Got home took the girls out to see Shrek the Third (don’t waste your money, wait for DVD)…came home…got sick…spent all of Sunday in bed nursing an upset tummy….

Came to work today…that has been my life lately…go go go….

Hope all is well with my fellow bloggers…

The Phoenix Suns

They lost last night...and shouldn't have...root for them on Friday!!!

Can it still be called Spring Fever...

if it is over 100 Degrees outside?

Well not really that hot, but it might as well be...but the nights the nights are gorgeous....

Alas...spring/summer time has arrived in AZ. When you love when the sun goes down, but when it is high in the sky it is so hot.

I love AZ most of the time, but this little transition from winter/spring/summer is always hard. I hold so tightly onto the cool winter days and the warm spring nights that when summer starts to show its ugly head I usually run inside and drop the thermostat about 10 degrees.

I think that part of why I haven't been blogging much lately has to do with the fact that I am trying to soak up these last few days of cooler weather before the on slaught of three digit temps hit our state......so please forgive me while I soak up some cooler nights and warm days and I'll be back when 100 degrees is normal..

Have I said how much I love AZ????

Blah blah blah blah BLAH

My life is BLAH....i have nothing fun to write about....

I will hopefully return soon....

If not...miss me until my life gets interesting again!

Interview Me!

EC and Slick had interview me posts on their blog...I was brave and decided to let each of them give me five questions to answer....see below...

If you want to be interviewed by me...let me know!

EC asked:

If you could be on one reality how which one would it be?

I would love to be on Survivor, but not because I want to win the money but because I think it is going to be the only way that I will ever lose the weight I really want to lose. Hey call me crazy, but I think that losing weight like that could be a good thing for me…LOL

What is one goal that you want to reach in life?

The one goal I want to reach in life that I haven’t done already is to retire early enough to be able to enjoy life still. I had kids pretty young and I am looking forward to a little ME time…LOL

Do you have any siblings and what are they like?

I have one brother and we are a lot a like. We have the same sense of humor and same beliefs. He is a true cowboy through and through and he is a great husband and father. One thing I can say about him is that he will always tell you exactly what he is thinking and why he is thinking it….no hold barred with that one.

What is your favorite time of year and why?

My favorite time of year is Christmas time. I love to see all the decorations in the stores, I like buying the presents, I love hearing the music in the streets. The only thing I miss is that there is no white Christmas in AZ….and there never will be ;-(

Do you see yourself being married to anyone else but your husband?

I plea the fifth!

Slick asked:

From a females perspective, tell me why there are so many bad women drivers.

Women drivers are not bad....Men drivers just don't understand that at 51% of the population we actually do own the road!

As you well know, I'm about to be married. (No, I will not give you my phone number). This is my second time around. What advice do you have for me?

Run away!!! Just kidding.....listen to what she has to say...REALLY listen...because she might just be trying to save your life/ego/pride....and she also holds the key to how much sex you will/won't have!!!

You're sitting at Taco bell when you suddenly hear the big hairy man next to you fart. You look at him and he winks back at you and asks for your phone number cause "You're one hot broad!". What do you say or do?

I wink back and say I got one better!

In your opinion, what are the 3 biggest weaknesses men have? The 3biggest strengths?

I have to stop at three biggest weaknesses of men??? I think the 3 biggest weaknesses of men are being stubborn, being macho and thinking they own the road (see answer no. 1)

I think their three biggest strengths are (no not their tubular man appendage SLICK)! When they open up and share their true feelings, admitting that they really can't fix EVERYTHING, and realizing that women do have brains!

Finish this sentence.... "Slick approached me with his pet tarantula and stuck it right in my face....."

See I know this would never happen as SLICK is afraid of anything with more legs than he has!

Sick Kids and Clorox Bleach

Did you know that Clorox Bleach kills 99.9% of bacteria it comes in contact with on a surface? Did you know that if you use it to clean your bathtub and your child then takes a bath before you rinse it down…it will not cure the 99.9% of bacteria that is making her sick…however, it will make her skin itch…

I did not know this…now I do! Don’t ask me how!

BTW no reason to call CPS or DCHS...she is fine and was unharmed...once she was rinsed off she was fine......

My Date with the Lego Man

My most recent trip out of town was with my two best girlfriends. We try and take one to two trips together a year to get away from the family and just be silly. Our last few trips have been to Vegas so we decided to do something a little different this time. We chose to visit the happiest place on earth….Disneyland. Now before you get all excited let me just say that I never thought that the Wonderful World of Disney, pure as the driven snow, could ever EVER be tainted. I always thought that when in Disney you were protected from things like….hangovers, hands on men and throwing up….apparently you are not!

We get to our hotel around 3 pm on Friday night. It is cool and breezy outside and I think to myself (no it’s not a wonderful world) that this is going to suck being at Disneyland on a cold night. We proceed to go over to the hotel restaurant and have a few drinks and burgers. Finally make our way over to Disneyland and ride a few rides and decide that we need some drinks.

Now in California at Disneyland there is a place with a bunch of shops and they call it Downtown Disney. There is everything from the Wide World of Disney store to an AMC movie theatre. And…my new favorite place to visit…Tortilla Joes…where I met the very beautiful very gay very over the top IAN. Love this man more on him in my next posts I promise….Ian proceeds to tell us all about the Hollywood night life and how we should go out with him after his shift. This is one pitcher of Margaritas and two shots of tequila later. WE still have not worked up the courage to go out clubbing with a strange man who waited on us at the restaurant. Two pitcher of margaritas later Ian has now sat down beside me and become my leaning post. He then tells us of all the great stores in Downtown Disney including Something Silver and The Lego Store….which he happens to add has a full life size giraffe and a Darth Vader all made out of Legos. What he fails to mention is the little old man made of Legos on the bench outside of the store.

Three pitchers of margaritas and we have invited Ian to Vegas with us in July. We have exchanged numbers with him and we have pretty much said that he can stay with us anytime anywhere any place as long as he promises to keep the margaritas coming. Four shots later my stomach is starting to rebel and my friends want to go shopping. Seeing that they are not as drunk as I am I ask where they want to go….The Lego Store they say….OK I’ll wait outside on the bench.

About this time, the fireworks in Disneyland start and they make me nauseous. I want to lie down on the bench and wait for my friends…but no…someone is sitting on the bench and they won’t move. “Excusth me…buth can you Pleasth move…I am wasted and I needth to liiieee down!” I say to this man who looks like he is sleeping. He doesn’t responde….HELLO MR! I need to LIIIEEE down beforeth I PUUUKKKEEE on you and your yellow legs….your yellow legs….hahahahahahaha your yellow!” Followed by much pointing and laughing on my part.

Then yes…Ladies and Gents…I proceed to laugh so hard I almost pee my pants…but then I decide this is going to be the only friend I make this weekend that 1) can’t tell anybody about what I have done and 2) will have to listen to me regardless of what I have to say…so I sit on his lap and tell him all the things on my mind…about Ian and how adorable he is and how my family just doesn’t understand me and then I show him my new nose stud which he loves and tells me that I very much have the right type of nose for a piercing….Thank you…my motherth didn’t thinks so…I say.

That is when I kissed him…yes ladies and gents I kissed a big yellow plastic lego man. Full on his plastic lips and then proceeded to nuzzle against his neck and FALL ASLEEP for at least 15 minutes until my friends came out to rescue me. Apparently, MR. Legoman was starting to get a little frisky and fixing to take advantage of me while I was out cold.

I made it back to the hotel room…proceeded to eliminate many margaritas from my body. The next day I had to go visit the lego man again…to get a picture (thank god cameras were left at the hotel the day before) and get my picture taken with him.

Here you go:

Sorry Guys

Here is the deal....The post that won

Date with a Lego Man will be up by the end of the day.

I've had a couple of sick kids and haven't been able to get it completely written or posted...

Please be patient...but I promise it is worth it...

You Vote....I'll write

I have been out of town the last few days (Thanks to Slick for asking about me)!!!


I have several stories from my most recent trip and have several blog titles that I would like to write....you tell me which one you want to hear first...


1) My date with the Lego Man

2) You Ain’t Never Had a Friend like ME!

3) Tortilla Joes and Ian

4) One Tequila, Two Tequila, Three Tequila FLOOR

5) My pretty little flowered fingernails...and Indiana Jones

Voting will end tomorrow morning. This is the chance for all you lurkers out there to speak up.....come on you know you want to!

My Ambien Experience

A few weeks ago I went to my doctor because I had a urinary tract infection and I was there to give a new sample to be tested for God only knows what. While I was there I asked my doctor if I could talk to her about my current sleep patterns. She asked me what they were and I said they didn’t exist. Basically what happens is that each night my body starts to gear down for bed. My body gets tired and my breathing gets regular…somehow this is a sign to my brain that it needs to start making a to do list… Then I get up and go watch TV, play on the computer or read until sleep once again is able to take over my body.

The reason I wanted to talk to my doctor about this is that I was tired of taking 3 Tylenol PMs every night just to fall asleep and then on top of that I was also feeling rather groggy in the morning because my body could sleep off all the medication in time. So, we talked and we talked some more and she finally wrote me a prescription for Ambien. Now I have to say that I am not one to take drugs for most things. I will suffer through a cold, I will deal with the symptoms of allergies and the flu and I are best friends, but usually through all of this I do not take drugs (prescription or otherwise). Even when I had my UTI a few weeks ago I didn’t want to take drugs…however, infections do clear up better when treated with meds…..

She told me to take it only as needed because it was a “controlled” substance….much like the Zoloft she made me get a prescription for about a year ago because I would cry if I sat down at my desk (yes, I deal with anxiety and yes, that is the one drug I take regularly, if I don’t my life stops functioning). She said the first time I took it should be after a big meal when I have not been drinking alcohol and on a night when I didn’t have to work the next day so that I could judge how my body would react to the medication.

OK, I thought I’ll try it this Friday. I usually go out and have a big meal, and a few drinks, which I could skip and that would leave me with all day Saturday to recover if needed….OMG it was needed.

Now people, I have been drunk before and I have been hung over before and neither of these can even begin to describe how this felt. I took the pill after I went to dinner and went home. About ½ and hour later I still felt nothing….so thought ok not bad I can handle this….about 10 minutes later I thought I was tripping on acid….which I have never done…the room started to spin, the moon crashed into my house and the sun slept in my bed that night. Dragons were talking to me; Harry Potter saved me from falling off a building and at some point Wolverine kissed me. It was a serious trip.

Needless to say, I had a prescription for 30….and guess what…I still have 29!

Ambien Anyone….anyone

AAAHH the sacred Fortune Cookie say…..WHAT?

You will hear pleasant news……in bed?

This was my fortune today. I went to have Chinese food today for lunch. It is one of my weaknesses that I allow myself to partake in once a week. Not so much because Chinese food is bad for you, but because when I am there I want to order one of everything on the menu. One of my favorite parts of the meal is the end when you get to crack open the fortune cookie.

When I was a kid (probably like 14-16) and we would get fortune cookies we would always add in bed to the end of the fortune….so you might get one that says Money and Health will come your way….in bed. Now what exactly are you supposed to glen from this….you will get paid to have sex, but you won’t catch a VD???? Or what about Today is a good day for being with a companion….in bed….well at least you won’t be alone in bed. And this one…..Quality counts and you've got it….in bed….is that akin to it’s not the size of the boat it’s the motion of the ocean women tell men….. (Yes, a Jeff Foxworthy reference)

So while at this Chinese restaurant today I was on my way out the door and they have a basket full of fortune cookies…….and guess what…I took a handful…..now I’ll crack them open…live here in my blogger and type them out for you and let’s see how interesting this gets….

• Your dream will come true when you least expect it……in bed (Brad Pitt is coming to my house?)


• Wearing green will bring you the luck of the leprechauns…in bed (NO THANKS)


• You will live long and enjoy life…..in bed (YES!)


• Look to nature to discover your talents…..in bed (WHOA…honey where did we put the pine cone when we were finished last time?)


• On the first week of next month, do something just for yourself….in bed (Isn’t it more fun when you play with a friend?)


• You will attract cultured and artistic people….in bed (isn’t this the definition of an orgy?)

Happy Tuesday!!!

Be back tomorrow.

Nothing new to say

I made a new friend...

I am a friendly person by nature. I like to talk to people I don't know on the street in the store and all around. If I am drunk this trait becomes 100 times worse. While in Vegas last year I made friends with an old man, a young man and a man in a viking hat...yes the ones with horns.

I have a tendency to listen to others conversations and interject my opinion when I feel it is approriate....and I am generally a nice person.

So today...I made a new friend...he is 4 years old (think Bill Cosby as Himself "I 4 years old") He loves me...and I love him...and he is my new best friend.....

He is the son of one of the guys I work with...and they stopped by today to see what was going on. While he was there a client dropped by to give me something...while he was there (he is an old friend) he gave me a hug and kiss on the cheek...my new friend DID NOT like that...

He said to me....loud enough for my client to hear.....

DON'T EVER LET THAT HAPPEN AGAIN

...lol

I am loved!

Why do today what can be put off until tomorrow or the next day or the next!

This post will not be about making a midnight run to the post office on April 15th (which is a Sunday so your taxes don’t have to be post marked until April 16th @ midnight) nor will it be about making sure you file all of your W-2’s with your tax forms. No…ladies and gents this post will be about how happy I will be once April 15 (or in the case of this year the 16th) is here and gone.

You see…I work for a small office. Everyone within the office is pretty much self-employed except me….which I could be and they have approached me about it…but at this time.....NO.THANK.YOU! My boss is what most people would relate to as the CFO of the company…pretty much all things financial are in his realm of control. However during this time of the year he is busy….REALLY BUSY…..and not because he has to be….NO…because he chooses to be…you see he does all the tax returns for everyone in the office, their family and friends and such. In reality it adds up to about 25 total tax returns….but my wonderful boss…and yes I do like him and love working for him….is what we in the real world call a procrastinator….yes…he does not get in a hurry to do anything until it is due…which means that my life will be a living hell for the next 10 days…why….because he has waited until the week before the taxes are do to start on them.

Now I really don’t mind because my job is simple….get the returns as they are done…file away our copy, coordinate signatures…and post mark the damn envelope…all of this is fairly simple….where my life starts to get complex is when my boss starts working nights….NOT because I have to work nights….but because he starts to get cranky….add to this the fact that we have about 10 million (well probably more like 7 really) projects that are also coming due around April 20th….OMG…his OCD (yes he is a procrastinator with OCD…go figure) has kicked into overdrive and I must have been asked 15 times today if I made a copy of this or made that journal entry or if I turned the key in the lock on the door 7 times (no I turned it 8…OMG….the world ends).

Now I am a pretty organized person when it comes to my office at work. I like order on my desk and I don’t do clutter well….my home is a different matter, but my desk at work is ALWAYS CLEAN! So here is my issue….as the OCD and procrastination has finally come to a head where it needs to be dealt with or someone is going to die my office explodes into a tornado whirl wind of paper and staples…yes…ladies and gents my boss also has an affection for used staples…and I find them everywhere….on my desk, on my floor…in my files….at one point he thought it would be funny to put them in my coin purse in my purse…I kid you not…Needless to say I hate my office right now and I don’t think I can honesly take one more piece of crap in my office without losing my mind….and honestly…it wouldn’t take much to push me over the edge on a normal day…so add this stress and WHAM-O I’m a crazy lady (note to self…..call doctor to get more happy pills)

The point of this post…..I don’t have one….I just needed something to write about today…

Thanks!

Drinks on Me!

Everyday Sonic Drive In has a happy hour special – ½ price drinks from 2 to 5 in the afternoon. Now while I’m not usually out and about during those hours I have on occasion snuck (as in walk right out in front of my boss) and partook of a Route 44 oz Iced Tea (no lemon) please from my favorite drink spot in the whole world….Sonic.

Well, today was especially a rough day…I don’t know why, but I just didn’t want to wake up this morning and when I finally did everything that could go wrong…did…so when 2 pm rolled around I made my way out the front door and to the drive through….and wham bam thank you ma’am I had a fresh 44oz Iced Tea….no…Root Beer….wtf? I know I ordered Iced Tea and I can’t stand Root Beer…back to the drive in….guess what…I got a free drink card good for 10 free drinks…because they screwed up….SWEET….Drinks on Me!

I’m BACK!!!!

Did you miss me? Come on I know you did….admit it. You’ve been waiting with bated breath for me to return and tell you…….that I’M BACK! Well, probably not, but your going to get it anyway.

My long weekend turned out to be just that LONG. I always seem to get nostalgic for home and start to pine for a simpler life and time with family. Then I go home and after about 48 hours start to realize why I moved 10+ hours away from my family and why I would NEVER consider moving back there…..until another 6 months passes and I am once again struck with the bug to move home…it is all a vicious cycle I tell you….LOL

The party for my grandfather and his new wife went very well. I have to say she is a lovely lady and I can tell that they both love each other very much. I thought I was OK with him getting remarried and back into the swing of that whole game, but it bothered me more than I thought it would seeing him with another woman who wasn’t my grandmother. I was fine through the whole party, but once I was back at my parents house and realized that his is now building a life with someone else it struck me hard. However, I know that he only has a few years left on this earth and if she makes him happy, then so be it….I am the last person who should be passing judgment on him…divorced, pregnant before marriage…does not hold a lot of water in my family as far as opinions go.

Another nice aspect of the party is that I was able to see family that I hadn’t seen in years. My cousins who I remember at perpetually 5 year old are all grown up and some of them have babies of their own. Why in my mind did I still have them pulling my hair and stealing my lip gloss? In fact, one of them has a baby and another on the way…..Man time goes by fast. I have to say that despite all our differences and all the things that we have gone through as a family we are all able to still do one thing well….and that is throw one hell of a party. There was dancing, singing, visiting and most importantly….EATING. Good down home cooking…YUMMY. I think I gained 10 lbs in 2 days.

One thing I have to say is that I am happy to be home. I never thought I would look at AZ with longing, but once that plane touched down and I was on my way home I had to say…YIPPEE.

One bad thing….this was the first Easter with my kids that I didn’t dye eggs or have an Easter Bunny visit….think they will forgive me?


PS….all you lurkers….say hi…I would love to be able to link to your blogs…..

Either I'm Missed or I don't get the joke...

One of the blogs I frequent is Slick and today he left me the below comment...what does it mean?

Slick said...
Hey? Today is the 9th girl.

Does it mean he misses me? Can't wait for my posts? Or I am just so boring that I have so others that my life is far less interesting

Slick .....let me know!

LOL

I'm sure there is a way

I keep reading about bloggers who are "backing up" their posts from the last year, two years etc. I want to know how to do that.

My fear is that one day Blogger crashes and all my bits of worldy wisdom that nobody has ever read will be lost to the masses, I mean me and I will never again figure out how I got from Laughlin to Disneyland in three steps or less. Or that some great guy named JERRY helped me fix my mailbox lock or that my kids taped me singing Karoke and are still threating to put it on You Tube...

All of these bits of me would be lost FOREVER, FOREVER I tell you. And what would the world be if you didn't have ME....LOL.

So I am appealing to all these lurkers...you know your there...I see you...all my regular readers (hello all 4 of you) and anyone else who wants to help an insane lady out.....

HOW THE HELL DO I BACK UP MY POSTS?

ThAnKs!

Out of Town AGAIN

Man the months of March and April have been hard on me. I don’t know why I did this to myself, but somehow I have two more trips this month. One is this weekend where I am going to go home to see my family. There is a reception/party for my grandfather and his new wife on Saturday, so I am excited about that.

Then in two weeks I am going to CA with a couple of girlfriends to go to the happiest place on earth. Yes, I know I was just at Disneyland, but I think being there with girlfriends is different. I am excited, but also looking forward to that being the last trip for a bit. There is rumor of a trip to Vegas in July, but I don’t know if my body, mind or soul can take it. I am sure by July I will be recovered, but man I am tired right now.

My house is a wreck. Seems like the suitcases have not been properly put up in about a month. My bedroom looks like a refugee has come through and is fleeing her home land. Clothes, shoes, etc strung about like a mad woman lives there. My bathroom is just gross and my kitchen…I can’t even find my salad bowl chopper thing that is my favorite. Next weekend I will be HOME and I think a little spring cleaning is in order. I can’t take the piles of junk/trash (at least trash to me)/disorder that my house has now.

I have had many a friend come over and say your house is so clean and organized, but they don’t get to look in the closets or under the beds or in the cabinets. My mother and grandmother are the same way…pseudo pack rats. The surface of everything is clean, but underneath and hidden away is junk. Now I usually pride myself on not having a lot of junk. My drawers, closets etc are usually very nicely organized. Sterlite containers are my best friends and I can usually find things I am looking for in under a minute. However, lately it as been a push to just put shit where ever we have room for it at the time.

Right now I am sitting here at work thinking of the piles of crap in my bedroom and knowing that it will be at least a week before I can get to it. I am just tired of all the clutter. I would sign up for one of those clean me up reality shows, but I am afraid that they would laugh at me and say…What…this isn’t junk.

Oh well, at least I get a trip outta town and don’t have to stare at it this week!

BTW…since I won’t be here….

Back from Laughlin

The trip to Laughlin went well. Actually I had a really good time up until my friend got DRUNK! I’m not talking a little tipsy I am talking hanging all over….getting in the face of the person next to her….fall down drunk. It was her birthday and we had fun….but it was all I could do to pull her away from the Cuban boy that had attached himself to us…..

Besides that the trip was great…..I learned to play Black Jack…which isn’t hard in the scheme of things….but I’m an accountant and Black Jack involves math and I am hopeless with out my ten key….LOL.

I did pretty well…nothing to jump up and down about…but OK.

Hope you all had a great weekend and once I have more energy I will tell of my adventures in Lake Havasu with the spring break crowd on Saturday….let’s just say I saw a lot of ASS….and most of it was HAIRY!!!! LOL.